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myLot reputation of 91/100. ORyansBelt2012 (2113)   ranked 39 out of 10,227 in reading3 years ago

Chapter 22:

“You see John, I really don’t mind what you did,” Frank Hobbs said through his permanent leer. “Guilt played a large part I suppose. I felt bad for sure. You know, Mary and all, and especially Stacy.”

His good eye picked up on the involuntary raising of an eyebrow.

“Didn’t think I’d pick up on that little tidbit, did you? Well, I did. You see John, there’s a lot out there that we don’t know, and a lot we do, or think we do. You know some things the rest of us don’t. You drove a long way to see me and I know it’s not simply to catch up on old times. You need me. You hate yourself that you do, but you need me.”

“You set me up,” the words finally made their way up and out through the snags of a throat’s briar.

“Set you up, with what? How? John, if anything we did you a favor. We kept you out of prison. We kept you out of the nut ward. You did us a favor so we returned it. You trimmed off some excess fat. Granted, I’m sorry about Stacy, John. I really am, but I’m not shedding any tears over this.”

I almost came across the table at him right then, but remembered this was what I’d done to him last time. It was as if he knew he had it coming and he almost welcomed the beating. The guard took a half step forward. I eased back in my chair.

“You are a monster Frank.”

“No John. I am merely an opportunist. You see? I love Mary. I love Stacy. She’s like a daughter to me, I swear. Come on. You have the answer right there in front of you. Hell, I gave you the answer damn near.”

Frank leaned forward, propped his good left arm on the tabletop for support. While his head dropped into his chest, he was still able to regard me with his good left eye. He spoke in a low voice

“You can fix it John. You fixed it once already. All you have to do is go back and fix it again. Isn’t that why you’re here?”

“It is.” I admitted back.

“Good,” he said. “I was almost afraid I was wasting my time with you.”

He leaned back in the chair, swinging his arm back for momentum that would throw him into the chair back.

“I got what I deserved,” Frank said. “Hell, I don’t even blame you much. It hurt like hell, and it hasn’t been a real barrel of laughs eating apple sauce at every meal or pissing through a plastic tube, but I figure I had it coming. I got sent here, you got strapped to a bed for a month. I call it an even trade.”

He winked with his good eye.

“Good one though on the insanity plea though. Hell, John, I’m not even bitter that the department came to your aid and left me hanging out to dry. You know why?”

I didn’t reply.

“John, if I’m going to take time out of my busy and demanding social schedule to come all the way up here to watch you sulk, the least you can do is answer my God damned question. You know why?”

“Why?” I replied finally.

“Because I’m a survivor, John. I survive. I do whatever I have to do, whatever is necessary, whatever the situation demands, in order to survive. Things might not have come out all rosy in the end, but hey, that’s why I have you around.”

The useless claw waved at the room around him.

“This is my penance. My purgatory so to speak, and I don’t mind. Like I said, I had it coming. You took Mary out of the line of fire and they had to come for Stacy. I take the blame for that and I’m a cop in prison as a result. I’m sequestered from a prison population that wants to kill me – for my own protection if you can believe that sh*t. You don’t think I wouldn’t welcome death? John I’ve looked in a mirror. I’ve seen what you did. I took it. I didn’t fight back... you remember that right?”

A jackal’s cackle spilled from the uneven fissure of his mouth.

“Of course you don’t remember it,” he said. “Because for all the rage you have inside you, all the betrayal, the lust for revenge... despite all that... you are not capable of this, you’re one of the good guys. That’s why I knew you’d come. One day. Eventually. And I’ve been patient.”

“You knew I’d come.”

“Of course. I told you. You are John Beckett, but you aren’t John Beckett. I remember you Uncle John. I remembered you from that night in O’Ryan’s. You see... God... for all His alleged infinite wisdom... is like a kid with an ant farm. He really does have a sadistic sense of humor. Just look at the platypus. He skews the playing field. He doesn’t believe in a fair fight. He cheats, if you can believe that. God cheats.”

He raised the claw, an index finger curled into a crude hook pointed at me.

“You see John. I know everything. I remember everything. I know things I shouldn’t. I know things that never happened. I’ve seen you... two of you at the same time and I knew it wasn’t because I had too much to drink. I know everything that you know... and I know... that you will go back and fix things again, and that’s why I’m here talking to you today.”

“Enlighten me then,” I said. “Why are you here talking to me?”

“I knew you’d come one day. You came because I still have something you want, and you, John Beckett whom I don’t know, have something that I want.”

I gripped the chair arms and looked at him evenly from across the table, feeling like I’d just sold my soul to the devil.

“And what do you want?” I asked.

He leaned forward, the good eye burning hard and fierce.

“I want my God damned life back for starters,” he said. “And I want out of this f*cking chair.”

He winked, if lowering his good eye to a hooded slit could be construed as such.

“You and I are going to make a deal John. Isn’t that why you’re here?”

 
 
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1. myLot reputation of 98/100. sumofalltears (2647)   ranked 2,293 out of 10,227 in reading   3 years ago

Very interesting. It all begins and ends with Frank Hobbs I guess. He must be the pivotal point, the catalyst.....time is such a complicated yet simple thing.


myLot reputation of 91/100. ORyansBelt2012 (2113)   ranked 39 out of 10,227 in reading  3 years ago

It's funny. There are times when I have absolutely no clue where I'm going with this thing and then others when I've got somewhat of a path picked out. There are times when I'll sit here with my fingers poised above the keyboard and go, "now what?"
And then it just starts to come to me.


myLot reputation of 94/100. halina23 (1115)   ranked 1,406 out of 10,227 in reading  3 years ago

That's how it is with writing..."the way of inaction is action, the way of being is non-being." Or, better put, the way of writing is non-writing. You don't have to chase the story; let the story come to you. Gotta love the Tao Te Ching.

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2. myLot reputation of 94/100. halina23 (1115)   ranked 1,406 out of 10,227 in reading   3 years ago

Good chapter. The fact that Frank knows this another John, and not the one that beat him up, comes together quite well, actually. I just have a side question here: how is it that this story is already at Chapter 22? Where are the sections? John was just looking into Mary's eyes for the first time in Chapter 13...how did we get through 9 chapters already?


myLot reputation of 91/100. ORyansBelt2012 (2113)   ranked 39 out of 10,227 in reading  3 years ago

At Chapter 12 I stopped with the 12.1, 12.2, 12.3 and just made each segment an individual chapter. The 12.1's was too hard to follow. So actually when I go back and renumber this and take out the 12.1, 12.2's I should be up to chapter 40 something. We're up to Chapter 22 because I've posted ten segments since Chapter 12. If we were doing this the old way it'd be something like Chapter 14 or 15.


myLot reputation of 94/100. halina23 (1115)   ranked 1,406 out of 10,227 in reading  3 years ago

Yeah but....having sub-sections to chapters ain't a bad idea, really. Otherwise, you're going to be on Chapter 80 by the time this is all wrapped up and done! Or 100!


myLot reputation of 91/100. ORyansBelt2012 (2113)   ranked 39 out of 10,227 in reading  3 years ago

I know...and when I take it and set it up I could change it. The chapter designation I'm using now is pretty much just for here so it's not so difficult to follow.

If you read James Patterson, he has over 100 chapters sometimes. So does F. Paul Wilson. Have you ever read any of the Repairman Jack stories? Those are interesting.

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3. myLot reputation of 92/100. worldwise1 (6079)   ranked 2 out of 10,227 in reading   3 years ago

I just have to ask myself, ORyans, "Will he do it?" And, yes I believe he will. From what I've come to understand about Beckett, he will do it over and over again until he thinks he's got it right. I don't know if that's possible, but, hey, it's your story.(:

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4. myLot reputation of 94/100. halina23 (1115)   ranked 1,406 out of 10,227 in reading   3 years ago

Check out this story about virtual reality glasses causing intriguing out of body experiences for people...someone swiped your book idea!

The Out-of-Body Electric
http://www.slate.com/id/2172694/?GT1=10135

Two teams of neuroscientists have made a breakthrough in the study of "out-of-body experiences," according to this week's issue of Science. About one in 10 people report having had the strange sensation of floating away from their bodies at some point in their lives. According to the new studies, it's now possible to induce that feeling of astral projection in the lab.

There have been similar claims in the past: At Laurentian University in Canada, Michael Persinger has used a helmet studded with magnets to create quasi-mystical experiences, including—for some subjects, at least—the sensation of drifting outside the body. But the authors of the new research manage the feat without any neural poking or zapping. Instead, they use little more than a pair of virtual-reality goggles.

The new approach seems to work as advertised—test subjects said the experiment made them feel like they were outside of their own bodies. But that's where the story ends. The out-of-body VR setup does a great job of mimicking the superficial aspects of the out-of-body experience. But it teaches us very little about how or why it happens in real life.


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The first of these studies, titled "The Experimental Induction of Out-of-Body Experiences" and conducted by Henrik Ehrsson, shows that you can create something like an OBE using special effects. First, you sit in a chair and don a pair of virtual-reality goggles that are connected to a 3-D camera that's pointed at the back of your head. Looking through these goggles already makes you feel, at least to some extent, as though you're where the camera is, sitting a few feet behind your own body. (It's possible to create a similar feeling of displacement without looking at your own head: If the goggles were showing a three-dimensional video feed of the bathroom, you might feel a bit like you were in the bathroom.)

Now, Ehrsson tries to make the effect more realistic. He starts rubbing your chest, while at the same time reaching a hand toward the camera that's providing the video feed. As you feel the touch on your chest, you're also seeing an arm reach below your video "eyes." This combination, it turns out, makes you feel even more like you're sitting behind yourself. (Likewise, if you were watching a video feed of the bathroom and the experimenter flushed a toilet, it would make you feel even more like you were in the bathroom.)

To measure the strength of this illusion, Ehrsson conducts one more test. About a minute into the experiment, he suddenly picks up a hammer and swings it toward the empty space just below your camera "eyes." At the same time, he measures your emotional arousal using skin conductance electrodes: The more realistic the experience, the more charged up you'll get at the sight of the hammer coming toward your virtual nose.

The study confirmed that synchronized touching makes the illusion more vivid. ("Wow!" giggled one subject. "I felt as though I was outside my body and looking at myself from the back!") If you saw Ehrsson rub your imaginary chest at the same time that you felt it happening, you'd be more startled when he swung the hammer. In fact, this "multisensory correlation" of vision and touch helps you figure out your position in space—and decide whether you're in body or out of body. (The second paper, by Bigna Lenggenhager and Olaf Blanke, uses a different setup to arrive at the same conclusion; click here for more details.)

This result seems to corroborate previous work on out-of-body experiences. In 2004, Blanke's group showed that damage to the brain's temporo-parietal junction can make patients feel like they're floating above themselves and looking down. That patch of cortex is thought to be important for combining different kinds of sensory input, like vision and touch. If your temporo-parietal junction malfunctions, you might lose your ability to correlate your senses and forget where you are.

But the new studies don't provide much new insight into how a brain malfunction might create the out-of-body experience. The correlation of multiple senses improves all sorts of illusions—not just the mystical, floaty ones. Let's say I showed you a photograph of a poisonous snake baring its fangs. You'd know it's not going to bite you, but your skin conductance response might show a modest increase in arousal. A movie of a rattlesnake shaking its tail or snapping its jaws would elicit a more pronounced response, and a three-dimensional projection complete with hissing sound effects would be scarier still. And if you could also feel the snake slithering against your legs, you'd be terrified—after all, better feedback always makes for a more realistic experience. (This is why vibrating controllers make video games more fun: You connect the jolt in your hand with the image on the screen.)

There's no out-of-body experience in our snake example, just the illusion of a dangerous animal. Multisensory correlation—i.e., seeing, hearing, feeling—still enriches the effect. By that token, Ehrsson could have written a paper called "The Experimental Induction of Snake Hallucinations" and concluded that multisensory correlation underlies the perception of reptiles. But it's more tempting, and more interesting, to explain out-of-body experiences than reptile mirages. By pointing the cameras at the subjects' own heads, the researchers can create a nifty illusion while appealing to grandiose existential questions about consciousness: How do our brains combine our senses to decide where and what we are?


myLot reputation of 91/100. ORyansBelt2012 (2113)   ranked 39 out of 10,227 in reading  3 years ago

Do you remember the Michael Douglas movie with Catherine Zeta Jones...it's the one about reverse harassment or something like that.
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Michael Douglas wears a helmet like that and gloves I think to traverse the virtual world of the computer. He's trying to save files as she's deleting them.
That's kind of where I picked up the idea for this. I've been mulling something like that over in my head for years.

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