in memory   

This is very beautiful and poetic. The more you can immortalize your grandfather through writings like this he will continue to be alive in this way. It is very comforting to read it.. I hope it comforts you.

Time passes by and we can not return to those days. What we have are memories of the past. You're lucky to have good memories, some don't.

Hello, ramipalo. To me, you seem to be unable to forget about the past days where you had enjoyed yourself a lot with your grandfather. It is very human though. We cannot just forget about our beloved when some special day in memory of him appears. I hope that you will soon cheer up. Be happy, friend.

"mourning" takes time rami. everyone is different with the time process. but you have a family that needs you too!
it took a long time for me to get over my moms death. you never forget, but it gets easier. keep yourself really, really busy during this process!!!! do the physical stuff. power walks, scrub the floors on your hands and knees. go into your bedroom shut the door and scream into a pillow.and then beat the crap out of that pillow. do all these things until you feel like colapsing. cry into a bath towel...this stuff really works!11