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myLot reputation of 86/100. mechanicNOT62 (1590) 4 years ago

I promised myself I was going to post this today, without thinking much about it. I told a friend I would. It's about love.

My first wife and I had an ideal life, envied by many personal friends of hers and mine as told by them: "I wish my wife was that way with me", or "I wish my husband was like that with me." And stuff like that, for some 22 years before something happened... then she began making her own social circles and life and she changed dramatically, until she told me she "had lived long enough for the family and wanted to have a life of her own, and see the world, as I had."

After all was said and done we separated and my world sank into a black hole that I never knew existed or was possible.
That's just the background of my story.

Some caring people (friends and especially my lovely little sister) sufficiently urged me to seek counsel and I finally went to a man I shall never forget, who was a Vietnam Veteran like myself and to my shock he listened like no one else and ultimately embraced me with a man's embrace (no huggy huggy between us), MEN hurt with/for other men also.

But my point is...listen well, please. He said something I shall never forget and I quote: "How can someone...as intelligent and educated as you...give someone else so much power over your life?"

I'm not exaggerating when I tell you that his statement threw me for a loop, because I always believed that's what love is all about! But it made me think, and I still do, that the singer is true when he sings, "Love Hurts." That's because it's a matter of the heart and not the head.

I hope I can respond freely if you should wish to comment on this.
But, by the way, when I gave my heart to my present spouse, it was after a deliberate decission to forgive the ex and close that book.
Only the present is mine to own. And I do.

I believe it was Nat King Cole (long ago) who sang, "When I give my heart, it will be completely, or I'll never give my heart."


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1. myLot reputation of 91/100. Ldyjarhead (5188)   ranked 643 out of 32,948 in life   4 years ago


Oh

My

Goodness ....

What powerful words! You have no idea how much I needed to hear that very thing at this very moment in time. God sure knows how to use us to help each other, and I'm here to tell you that He used you just now.

Thank you, thank you, thank you. I am writing that one down and going to tape it to my desk.


myLot reputation of 86/100. mechanicNOT62 (1590)  4 years ago

I would be honored to make your day!
I can't imagine why or how I managed that but I'm a happier man now.

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2. myLot reputation of 93/100. hmkoct5 (1698)   ranked 2,695 out of 32,948 in life   4 years ago

I am so sorry that you experienced such a loss in the past. The man who helped you was very wise. My parents divorced after 35 years of marriage. My father decided he no longer loved my mother and he left her for another woman. It was almost ten years ago that this happened. My Mom is still suffering, much like you were. She can't let go. She is often depressed and miserable. I have tried to tell her that she shouldn't let my father have so much power over her. I have tried to tell her that she needs to put the past in the past. She just can't seem to do it. It makes me very sad to see my Mom going through this. I don't know how to help her, because unlike you... those words did not cause a breakthrough. I am glad you have found new love! I wish you all the best.


myLot reputation of 86/100. mechanicNOT62 (1590)  4 years ago

Well, I thank you for being such a good counselor to your Mom, first of all, and then for your sentiments concerning me. It is NOT easy, and I know that at times the women are the most susceptible. Time together and age make a big impact too. I figure your Mom was past her fifties when this happened, and even ten years ago that would have made a huge impact on some people.
I was very Blessed to find someone who could fill the void in me. And believe me, she worked at it.

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3. myLot reputation of 83/100. soumyasundar555 (882)   4 years ago

I feel really sorry for you abut what you had to go through in your past.... but don't you blame your self... it was not your fault....misunderstanding happens...
when it reaches the threshold, it better be forgiven.. and I think you should be proud of your self that you did the right thing.....
best wishes for your present life and be blessed.......


myLot reputation of 86/100. mechanicNOT62 (1590)  4 years ago

Thank you. I am Blessed, and unfortunately for the ex I don't feel guilty...she does, and I'm sorry for her.

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4. myLot reputation of 96/100. cheenlly (2662)   ranked 724 out of 32,948 in life   4 years ago

oh its a very inspiring and touching story of yours and yes i agree that forgiving is the only way to free oneself from heavy feeling or heavy burden inside the heart. When you find forgiveness in your heart, it makes you feel wonderful and that its a brand new start. They said that "Hurt is the price when loving" ,thats because if you haven't tried to be hurt, you will never know the difference between the two and when you are hurt thats when you learn to appreciate how wonderful love is. I can see your a very romantic person and its glad to know that the story ended happily...... Just my two cents! happy mylotting.


myLot reputation of 86/100. mechanicNOT62 (1590)  4 years ago

Thank you cheenlly, I think forgiveness is definitely a key word and I'll tell you a trick I used... You see, I just couldn't understand how this could happen, no master how I tried, so I was able to admit my fault: "lack of understanding or wisdom to deal with the issue", which led me to consider that I was in need of forgiveness for my fault, my shortcomings. So, if I need forgiveness, how can I not forgive too?
I think it went something like that. It was helpful and indeed a load off my whole being! Thanks again.

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5. myLot reputation of 92/100. zandi458 (11483)   ranked 570 out of 32,948 in life   4 years ago

Your life and love story is full of character that depicts the triumph of hope over experience. You are considered a seasoned person with all the good and bad happenings in your life. God never intended that we should be unhappy. Everybody must live his/her own life. Love once given is meant never to be taken back into the heart, any more than the air we breathe out is meant to be taken again into the lungs. Remarriage may bring better social adjustment, but it never brings a deep inner peace.


myLot reputation of 86/100. mechanicNOT62 (1590)  4 years ago

Oh, but I have inner peace! I displaced the resentment I had toward the other lady with love for my wife. The other rejected the life she had --I was rejected-- but I stayed alive, and not in a vacuum. I still had (and have) feelings, emotions, LIFE! It would be as sad an event to mourn for her the rest of my living days as if I had taken my own life. I don't believe in that! You said it yourself zandi, "Everybody must live his/her own life." She chose hers and left me to do what I chose with mine. You also said, "God never intended that we should be unhappy." I feel richer for my experience and maybe even a little wiser because now I can understand other people better and be more comforting to those who are willing to share. I love life

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6. myLot reputation of 91/100. psspurgeon1 (669)   ranked 1,865 out of 32,948 in life   4 years ago

Well, I believe that we are who we are because of past expierences. Isn't it amazing how good things can actually come from heartache? Like, by having your heart broken you gained two beautiful daughters, and a lifetime of wisdom. You also found a new friend and found alot of respect in the process. It's hard to imagine at the time of the tragedy that something positive may actually follow, but when you push through the pain and suffering and life goes on, you are all the better if only for the knowledge. This is a tragic story with a fairy tale ending and I truely am happy that you were able to regain control of your life. :-)


myLot reputation of 86/100. mechanicNOT62 (1590)  4 years ago

I think you're right, we are the sum total of our experiences and we mature IF we learn from them. It's sad to say some people don't. I think I have. And yes, I've gained much in spite of my losses. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings. It's a mystery though.

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7. myLot reputation of 90/100. jordan04n (370)   ranked 2,738 out of 32,948 in life   4 years ago

Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all....love hurts and so does life...love makes life worth living...


myLot reputation of 86/100. mechanicNOT62 (1590)  4 years ago

You get no argument from me! That's all very true. Thanks for sharing.

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8. jstiltner (21)   ranked 7,004 out of 32,948 in life   4 years ago

I must say this actually scares me. My husband and I are junior high sweethearts we have been best friends for many years before we married. Although we do have the occasional argument I pray that he doesn't go years with me and then change his mind one day. I know people change as we have both changed a lot over the years. Were there no signs? My parents have been married for 23 years but they've been miserable the whole 23 and they'd never leave each other. I think they are miserably comfortable if that makes any sense. Oh well all I can say is that I pray my marriage lasts a lifetime.


myLot reputation of 86/100. mechanicNOT62 (1590)  4 years ago

I think marriage is truly a mystery, and I don't mean in the religious sense! I'm talking about the chemistry between two people, two personalities and even two different sets of experiences that must seek and keep a balance.
I think that not everybody is able to cope with role changes and when they happen, they get thrown out of orbit.
Example: When your daughter becomes a teenager, she still needs you to be a Mom or Dad, not just a friend. Some people make the mistake, confuse their role, and it affects the marriage. This happened with my ex and she started to imitate our eldest in immature ways. She later told me that maybe she had gone through an early menopause. I would have never figured that out.
Example 2: When a woman is a lifelong housewife, then decides she wants to study or work, she needs to understand that the change WILL affect the rest of the family as well, and there's a need to coordinate a balance for all concerned, not just "cast fate to the wind". My ex failed at this, even though I supported her and took care of our little ones the whole time. I've seen this happen again and again to friends and others.
It's all about committment, and endurance for the sake of those initial vows, when you meant what you said to each other. That's what I think... and about forgiveness too, because nobody's perfect. I believe you can hope for a lasting marriage, but you also have to work at it. I was separated from her several years so she could be covered by my insurance because I cared, but there came a time when I threw in the towel and freed myself. I felt she had taken me for granted and I would always be there no matter what she did.

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9. myLot reputation of 92/100. howardskip (2029)   4 years ago

It saddened me about what happened to you (in fact i belong to a broken family too, although single)... But it was really good for you that you shared this to mylotter because it is indeed an inspiring one and one of the mylotter who experiencing the same might have a very good impact for him/her to accept and to move on... because those two are the hardest part in situation like this...

I am really happy that all of the things that happened, you had forgiven her and accepted it and finally move on with your life... a very hard thing to do...

I could describe you in one word (if you let me) 'GENUINE'...

happy for you..

see yah!


myLot reputation of 86/100. mechanicNOT62 (1590)  4 years ago

Thank you, I don't know exactly how to respond to you, because I already said so much, but I do thank you for sharing with me and giving me that word to consider...that's interesting. And yes, I'm very happy to say that at least one of my friends already told me she got something out of it. That makes me happy. Thanks again howardskip! Later!

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10. myLot reputation of 71/100. subha12 (16393)   ranked 2,142 out of 32,948 in life   4 years ago

love really hurts. in one way or other, many times love hurts the people. i have seen even believing blindly a friend can cause you great harm. when the love hurts, it makes you feel down. so it must not be the most important thing in life.


myLot reputation of 86/100. mechanicNOT62 (1590)  4 years ago

To the contrary, it hurts so much because it is such an important need! Scientific studies prove that we all have a need to love and be loved. I believe when you cease to love someone in some way you wither and die internally and become something instead of someone. Loveless people are cold and have no conscience, and don't care about hurting others. The hurt comes when the love relationship is damaged, just like when a bone is broken. But without it, you're out of shape.

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