I miss my friend but i cant tell her   

its been 6 yrs since my oldest kid best friend left me and went to America,i didn't have computer back then so i couldn't email her often and when i did it was good at first but it soon seemed we didn't have much to talk,then we started having petty fight and one day the conversation in msn ended up harsh.
2 and half yrs back we added each other on facebook ,we seldom write wall posts except for our birthdays where she tells me she misses me but it doesnt feel like she does although i go through her posted notes everytime they are usually about her new best friends but me,i watch her videos pics she got long hair and mine still and more short,she is girly and i am tomboyish .she even gave me her ph number but i wonder y she never bothered giving it to me 6 yrs ago or even calling me so i cant even face her americanish accent :p
i am playing a game called crash bandicoot time warp its very old used to be a ps1 game and now i m playing it on my psp it badly reminds me of her cz we used to play that for abt 4 hrs and she had to go back home before 8 and we used to end up not able to finish the last level
i pretty much feel its my own fault and its just not gna be the same.
i just wanted to share with you mylots since i dont think i ll find my friend here and even if she does she wont know who i am :p.so try not to loose your best friends its hard when you cant tell em you miss em