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| Well, my brother came by today to see if I wanted to go to Mom's house with him. Let me bring you up to speed on this story. As some of you know, about 3 months ago my Mom was diagnosed with Cancer. It has pretty much destroyed her liver, has spread into her bones, and the prognosis is pretty bleak. She lives a few miles away, and I have no vehicle, so today was the first time I had gotten to see her since we found out. The last time I saw her was Christmas, and though she looked a little underweight at that time, she still looked like the same old Mom. I was not prepared at all for how she looks now. For one thing, she fell while getting up earlier today and fractured her shoulder and has a huge bruise on her hip. Luckily, one of my sisters was there to get her to the hospital. They (the doctors) put her right arm in a sling (but didn't immobilise it for some reason) and sent her home. My Mom has lost so much weight, and her skin is stretched and thin. Anytime she moves, her shoulder makes her grimace in pain. I am ashamed to say it, but I wanted to turn around and run out of the house. This is NOT how my Mom is supposed to look, dammit. She is only 69, and should have had plenty of years left. She has one of those oxygen hoses in her nose, she is on morphine for pain (not that it appears to do much good)... This just sucks. My Mom and I have some really rocky history, but she is still my Mom, and this is just freaking me out so bad. And the worst thing is this feeling of helplessness. This THING is killing her from the inside, and I can't do anything to stop it. I can't take it out into the yard and stomp it to death, or bloody it with my fists...all I can do is look and think "this was NOT supposed to happen". So I stayed for about three hours, and just tried to keep the smile on my face. I so much want to be mad at someone about this whole thing, but there is no one to blame...it's just life, and sh1t happens. But it wasn't supposed to happen to my Mom. I wish so badly I could change places with her, take the cancer away from her and into myself. I'm not looking for advice or sympathy here (at least not for me...maybe sympathy for Mom), I am just working all this out in my head as I type it, trying to get a grip. And wishing I believed in God so I could pray for strength. Because right now, I feel pretty weak. | | | | | |
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2. khayshenz (1186)
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3 years ago
| | Interesting thing about believing in God is it's never too late to erase your doubts and cry out to Him. He's always there. And I know many mylotters are praying people - I'm sure that they will pray for you and your family. Cancer is tough -especially to a parent. I felt the same way you did when my dad was diagnosed with colon cancer. I wished there was a way for me to take away his sickness. I wished there was a way to transfer the cancer to my body. And since there's no way - I just prayed. My dad kept saying that it's all in God's will. I'll be praying for you and your family - you're not asking for it, I know. But it's there anyway. Be blessed. | | | | | | |
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| 4. chickeatabandana (23)
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3 years ago
| | I remember feeling something similar the last time I saw both my grandmother and my father, prior to their deaths. They had both been sick for a long time but really seemed to change drastically in the last months. Feeling like you want to run out of the house is normal, but I hope you will be able to spend some more time with your mother. | | | | | | |
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5. AngryKittyMSV (1913)
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3 years ago
| | I'm so sorry for what your mom is going through and for what YOU are going through. I lost my dad after he'd been really sick for a long time, I helped my mom take care of him, it was rough. My dad was a big strong guy who NOBODY could beat, but the sickness just gobbled him up. I'm so sorry that you had to see your mom so sick, and I am sorry that the damned sickness is making her suffer so badly. I really have no advice to offer (not that you need any), just my empathy. You know where to find me if you need to chat with a friend who cares and is familiar with those feelings that seem to conflict eachother. Just keep talking, let it out, because keeping it inside will hurt you more than anything else right now. {{{HUGS}}} | | | | | | |
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6. dmrone (742)
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3 years ago
| | Hi! I know there is not much i can say, but i do believe in God and i will pray for you and your mom. I am glad that you got to spend time with her, and i know about the running and the wanting to take it out on something or somebody. | | | | | | |
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7. LadyMarissa (4300)
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3 years ago
| | Christian bigots want you to think that. God has NEVER said you have to believe in Him for your prayers to be heard!!! All that is required is a true need & love in your heart. You have BOTH Mike so now you have NO excuses!!! LET IT OUT!!!! HUGGGGGGS to your Mom & to you!!! | | | | | | |
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8. sweetashoney (766)
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3 years ago
| | I'm really sorry to hear about your mother. Years ago my sister was also diagnosed with cancer. She lived around 10 years after this, I really believe she would of lived longer if she wouldn't have given up. I know you must be thinking right now " this was your sister, this is my mother we are talking about." And I will say that you would be right,not only have I had to watch my sister go through this, I also have lost my mother. My sister was my best friend but my mother was my heart. I know that it hurts to see her this way and I know that you said you didn't want any advice but I am going to say this; be there for her as much as you can. You see I wasn't able to see my sister or mother very much, I seen them maybe once every 2 years. I lived in South Carolina and they lived in Florida. I don't want to over step my grounds and I don't know your story, but it seems like someone would have taken you to see her before this. | | | | | | |
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9. hornswaggled (2074)
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3 years ago
| | I'm so very sorry for you lamb, I know that sounds so stupid. It always does when someone tries to help with words. I guess I just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you and your mom and the rest of the family...and I DO believe in God so I'm praying for you and her.... | | | | | | |
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10. dasiejanie (335)
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3 years ago
| | Your story is also my husbands story, this past June 24th his mom 68 died of bone cancer. It wasn't supposed to happen to her either, she was a woman so full of life, always ready to have fun. The most loving mom and grandma to our kids. She had so many friends young and old it didn't matter she was and Is one of the greatest people I ever met. She was just here in march at our home we live 8 hours from each other. It was the first time I'd seen her without her hair but she was still beautiful. She was weak but not to bad, stayed for 4 days then went to stay with her best friends at a camp. She had a blast. She came back to our house since her son my husband was gonna drive her home that night she started hurting, we called her doc and got med that didn't work. The next day they left for Texas straight to doc office. He gave her some kind of pain patch and sent her home she got weaker after that in and out of the doc office shed fallen a couple times passed out , her husband being up in age couldn't lift her so finally they put her in the hospital, for 2 days then when her vitals were better he insurance com. Said send her home, we were there at the time and insisted they keep her she couldn't get out of bed she was in horrible pain she wasn't eating and needed to b there in the hospital the only thing they could do was send her to a nursing home for up to 21 days. With no choice 11we agreed. She was never alone we. Or someone was always there. The day we had to leave she seemed better she ate half a hamburger, was talking and we said we'll b back and see her at home ( her house ) about 5 days later my husbands dad called and said he needed help with paperwork the home gave him. So we left the next morning when we got there we werent prepared for the change in 5 days. She was so skinny her skin was so thin it was heartbreaking, she was on oxygen with she hated the mask kept pulling it off we spent the night begging her to leave it on. It was keeping her alive, at 345 am she started refusing her pain med. She was fighting everyone to keep the mask off. Hospice was called but didn't get there rill 8am they took her to the er gave her morphine in a drip iv she was finally pain free she died 2 hours later. | | | | | | |
dasiejanie (335)
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3 years ago
| | Though this was the worst thing we had ever seen, my husband and I were there to hold her tell her how much we loved her cry with her and just b there for her she was scared and would look into my husbands eyes and I could see her relax a little, it made a difference to her and us, after seeing her suffer her death though is still hard she isn't suffering anymore. She with us in our hearts and we know one day well see her again . | | | |
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