Facing Emotions Attack

First let me say I feel your pain and pray for your understanding of the situation. I know it seems hard not to yell and curse God for letting this happen to your friend. But what you should be doing is giving your strength to your friend in their poor health. You say you are spiritually weak, but actually are just feeling normal,in that is how you were designed. If you have some Christian beliefs then you should waste no time in prayer. Help your friend to lose their doubt and have faith enough to break the chains of pain. God did not create these evil ills, but allowed them, being the creation of man and can be defeated by faith. There is nothing that man can concoct that can't be destroyed by God. It will take all your heart and soul to have enough faith to battle this war, so build up your army and pray with them like you never prayed before, and if they are not saved by Jesus blood then it would be best to repent of their sins and get saved before it's too late. I am not a strong Christian either and fighting my sins that I have to give up, but I will do it. Even though I have sinned, by God's grace whenever I run into a battle no matter what type, I call out to God to bring me his army and defeat my enemy's, in Jesus name, anything can be defeated even a death sentence, and he always will answer your prayer, except asking for material things like money. You will be given the money by the tools he gives you, but you have to be observant to find these tools he will put in your path, be it someone that gives you a phone number to the answer or a letter from the right people who can help, do not neglect any signs he sends. Remember...Faith...prayer...observance...sincere love for Christ and your on your way.
With sincere love and prayer in your journey.

Reanaclaire.. I don't know, I am someone that very hard headed, I do not want to have the depression sink in for long... and yes, I have thoughts of ending my life too, but sometimes I just don't have the courage to do that. I always believe that someone taking their life is very brave to do so. Now, if you gonna ask who will I turn to if I am having a problem, I will say nobody but myself.. I can be sharing my problem with the whole world, but still me myself the one that gonna face it one day. Don't be overly taken by the lost feeling, as this maybe a path that GOD make us walk through in terms to get a better understanding of life, and we appreciate more of those living... Cheer up my dear friend, let your love one rest in peace.. hugs

hi it is so sad to learn this lol.. you must take care, try to avoid depression, that would be bring health problem.. pray the almighty, he can help...
Arun