There are certain things I can't do...  

That was very sweet - thumbs up for being so open in a public forum about your emotions!

I have someone who makes me feel this way.. He's my best friend. He's my lover. He's my soul mate. He's the one who always gets loud and tells me how it is no matter who's around, when he knows I don't want to listen .. Because he knows that he's challenging me to rise to the occasion. He knows that I want honesty, and he's going to give it to me, with blunt force verbal brutality because often times that's the only way to reach me.

He's the person I argue with often because we're both stubborn and sometimes we don't want to acknowledge our wrongs and so we don't talk for a few days at a time. But later when we make up, we're more open with each other and get along better than before.

He's the person that, even when we've called it quits, still catches me when I fall, tells me when he thinks that I am going to mess up, but never rubs it in too hard when I'm wrong because he figure that my personal hurt is punishment enough.

I could go on for hours...

It simply doesn't get any better :)

I feel your pain with this. I truly do. I have been in your shoes many times. I hope it all works out for you and the love of your life will wake up soon and realise what a nice person you are and how lonely you are and how you long to be with only them.

With me and my man, it doesn't matter what I'm doing , there is at least one thing that reminds me of him or what he has written me.So you are not alone. I bet there are things she can't do without tghinking of you. hold on . Aren't you suppose to talk Saturday? It is just a day away.