|  I met this guy when I was in the 6th grade. I didnt really have much feelings for him then. He was shorter than me at the time & I didnt know him very well, so yeah...nothing between us really went on till about a year or two ago. Last year I had afew classes with him, & since we had alot of the same friends, we usually hungout alot. He'd changed alot. He'd gotten taller than me, & I dont know...he just seemed so different. I guess he'd just grown up some. In the classes that I had him in, he would sit by my & always leave comments & everything, like telling me that I looked pretty today & everything. At first I didnt really notice that he was doing it. I mean, like I said, I didnt really see him as anything other than an aquantance. But towards the end of last year he was dating one of my friends. He broke up with her, & she was devistated. I kinda quit talking to him as much. I mean after that school semester was over, I left for summer vacation & this year...he's back with my friend. Last semester him& her seemed okay. They werent fighting as much or anything, & I thought their relationship was going good. But now this semster of school, me & him have afew classes again & now we're talking again. I'm not talking to him as anything more than a friend. I mean he's dating my friend & I dont like him like that...okay...well...I kind DO like him, but no one knows that. I'm trying to make myself NOT like him. Not as anything more than a friend anyway. At first when I got that class with him, I didnt talk to him much. I'm shy around some people at times, so at first I didnt talk to him much. Just talked to my friend KC in there. But then he started coming up & playing around with my all the time. Like giving me hugs & everything. He'd even give me hugs right infront of his girlfriend when she'd come into class to talk to me! I just saw it as a friend hug, you know? But Now every morning when he comes into class he comes & gives me a hug, & its not a quick friendly hug. Its like a long cuddle hug! I usually try to make it a quick hug & then pretend not to notice[I kinda like the hugs, but I keep thinking about my friend who's dating him]. Wats even worst than the hugs is that we play fight alot when we have breaks in class! I mean we're both laughing & giggling & everything :/. Everyday I tell myself that I'm NOT going to talk to him, & that I'm NOT going to pay any attention to him, but then I see him & I just do a 180. I mean when he comes over to me & my friends talking, he's a really sweet guy, & he's always making me laugh & smile. One of the days that me & him was play fighting he was tickling me & he accidently cut me with his class ring. He imediatly stopped playing around & was like "I'm sorry I'm sorry, I didnt mean to hurt you." I didnt even know that he had done it, & I was so shocked over how caring & upset he was about it. But the next morning my friend(his girlfriend), was talking to me about their relationship, & was upset about a conversation they'd had on the phone the night before. She said that she could've sworn that he said "We're over" & hung up, but she said that that morning he had said that he'd said "This CONVERSATION is over". I didnt know wat to think about it, but yeah...the day after that I went to class & I didnt hug him or anything, just went straight over to my seat & sat down with KC & was talking, but he came over & sat with us. I tried not to pay any attention to him, but then he started making me laugh & smile. So I got up & me & KC went into the back part of the classroom...only after a few minutes he came over & gave me a hug. I was like 'Resist, resist! Dont enjoy it!' But I did like the hug :(. The teacher was talking to me for afew minutes about something on the computer, so he went over & sat down by where I sit in the class. I dont know if he thought I was going to go sit by him or wat, but I didnt, I just stayed where I was with KC & talked to her. There were two guys having a paper ball fight in the class & I was laughing about it some. I saw my friends boyfriend looking at me out of the corner of my eye, & when ever I was laughing about the paper fight, he got up & started joining in on the paper ball fight too! I started not paying much attention to the paper ball fight & after he seemed to relize that I wasnt watching the paper ball fight anymore, he quit, & came over by me & KC & was talking with us some. After a little while he started tickling me again & we was play fighting again! I was like 'NOOOoooo!' Wats bad is...KC is friends with his girlfriend too, & there was a guy who was friends with my boyfriend :/. I was like 'Oh gog, please dont let them tell anyone about them seeing this & then it get out of control'. I mean my boyfriend has already be b*tching about it some. He doesnt know about all the play fighting or anything, but he's seen some stuff happen. I just told my boyfriend that it was nothing to worry about. And I know if his girlfriend found out anything, that I could explain to her that we were just playing as friends & that there was nothing going on. She knows that I dont mess with my friends boyfriends or ex's. But right now I dont know wat I'm going to do! I think I kinda DO have feelings for him, & I've even been loosing some sleep over all this! After me & him we play fighting for a little while, the bell rang to go to the next class, & he didnt leave the class real quick like he used to at the beginning of the semester. He was one of the last people to leave the class with me. He used to always rush out of class to see his girlfriend in the hall...but it didnt happen that day :/. In my afternoon class that I have with him & his girlfriend, she came in all mad & sat down at her seat. I didnt see her boyfriend with her, so I thought something had happend to him or something, but then he came in all mad too with their books. I guess he'd went to get her books or something. Well he talking over to the seat by her to sit down & he just slammed her book onto her desk! I was like '=O' I know they get mad at each other alot & fight alot, but I'd never really SEEN it. They was being really mean to each other. And towards the end of the day his girlfriend came up to me all annoyed & upset & said that he had tried to slam her hand in a door! I was like "WAT!?" & she said that she was leaning on the door fraime & he walked by & slamed that door, & that if she hadnt moved her hand really fast, that he would've smashed her hand! I was like "It was an accident, I'm sure it was" I mean he wasnt a mean guy. He always seemed pretty sweet. But she said that all he really did was say "Oh baby, sorry" in a calm way & then walked away. Like he wasnt really sorry or something. I talked to her about it somemore, but oh my gosh! :/ things are going so crazy & I dont know wat to do! I CANT like this guy!
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