My Big Boy is leaving me sooner than I wish would be.....  

Thank you diva, it is not an easy thing to deal with. This is not my first time going through this. It is my first losing one to cancer though.
He is really a good boy. He is so sweet and really protective of everyone around him. He so much loves babies and little thing because he thinks anything small is a baby. He looks after everyone.
He has always been here for me. I will miss him. It's more than I can bear right now.

Thank you Gabs, you have been a very good friend to me through all of this. He has been sick and had other problems. Finding out about this cancer and tumor was the very last thing. Now it is back. I spend as much time with him as I can. I always have. He knows me like a book...everything I do he understands it all.
We gave him a birthday party with his cake and ice cream because we knew he would not last that long.
It is hard for me and now my son moved back to Mississippi since he has a new girlfriend. So I am alone with my boys now.
The little ones and I are going to miss our big boy. I know the baby will be devastated like me.
Thank you for being here for Ninja and me.
I will also be with you for Gissi. We need each other as the days go on.
Take care dear friend and give Gissi a hug and kiss from us too.

Oh Sweetie it hurts me that you are all alone with this right now
I am sending you strength and love Sweetie always
Gissi sends hugs and Kisses back

Gabby, in some ways I'm glad that I'm alone. I would not be good company now. I am spending as much time with Ninja as I can. I hardly leave the house unless I must. Many times he goes with me when I can take him where I'm going. He is such a good boy.
Thank you and Gissi...my love and hugs to you both.

Thank you Snoopy, and welcome to MyLot.
It is very hard to lose a baby. He is my baby. I do have 3 more. They are all little buys. One has been with Ninja here just about as long as Ninja has.
I too believe that animals go to heaven and will be there waiting for us. They even greet us at the gates with our family when we go.

I sure hope you don't have to experience this for some years to come.

Thank You. And take some comfort in the fact Ninja won't be suffering anymore. He will be up there running around, making new dog friends, eating only the finest of bones, and waiting for you to come and be with him. I saw him on your profile page he is a beautiful dog.

And yes I hope I do have a few more years with Bandit. Once they hit those double digits and that gray hair starts coming in it is hard not to think about it.

Peace

Thank you. He knows he is a fine looking gentleman too. We tell him and so does everyone that sees him for the first time or any time. They say what a fine looking boy he is, that he is gorgeous. He is a proud boy. He gets upset though if someone calls him a "D-O-G". He looks at me and in his eyes says...:did you hear what this person called me?" I tell him yes, this person does not know that you are my baby. I also let people know not to call him a D-O-G. He does not like ti and his feelings get hurt.
Hugs to Bandit and you.

Bandit doesn't know she is a dog either. I tell everyone my kid has four legs and a tail. That is the way all dogs and cats need to be treated. I will give Bandit a giant hug from Ninja and his mom her latest online friends.

Peace & God Bless

Yes, all animals need to be treated with love and respect and they should be spoiled...lol

Thank you. He has had lots of pain. He is on 2 pain medicines now and gets his injections just once a month now. But I fear he won't make it for his next injection. He also has hip dysplacia. And this has caused much pain through out a number of years.

Thank you Tamara. I appreciate this. It is what I need. I'm sorry that I made you sad and anyone else too. I have been crying so much for the past month and a half that it seems that I should not have any tears left...but I do.
I'm sorry for your loss. Cancer is not an easy thing to see your babies go through. I hate that you had to deal with that and them too.
I know we will be able to see them all again when we leave this plan too.

Thank you pye. I'm sorry to hear about all of your losses too. It is so hard. Ninja has not been with me that long but I feel as though he has been with me all of my life. It's only been 7 years but it seems like forever that we have been together. He is my shadow, he is with me every step I make. When I go places he is with me too. Unless, he is not able to go.
I do worry about my youngest one. He is so very attached to Ninja. He won't do things unless Ninja does it with him. Like go outside, he goes and talks to him and tells him he wants him to go to. He will wait until Ninja goes with him.
Ninja is such a good boy and watches over everyone.

I do know that he will no longer be in pain when I let him go. This is the only thing that helps get me through being able to do this to him...it's more for him. It does not change the fact that I will miss him too much.
Thank you.

I know. It must be terrible. We had to get put a good ole dog of ours down afew years ago. He was a Blue healer and an excellent dog. He got to where he could walk and get around very well and fell down the stairs one day when we were gone. We felt so bad for him and the vet said it was time to put him down. We took his body and buried him up in a meadow where we used to go and camp. We think of him often still and we go visit his spot when we can.

Oh, I'm so sorry for your loss. I do know how hard it is to lose them. They are my babies and they are close to everyone in the family. Since I'm the one that is constantly with them they stick by me when I leave the area everyone is in. Or when I go to bed they are right with me.
Most of our babies are buried on our property. I want him to be with them and us too.

Thank you. When I was young and lived most of the time at my grandmothers we buried the animals around on that property.

Hello Leenie, it has been awhile since I have posted a discussion. I reply to some when I can.
I have been through the mill for the last several months. I had been sick. I found out in 2 days time that Ninja had cancer, that I may have Parkinson disease, and that my brother-in-law had to have heart surgery and that my grandmother has lung cancer.
There is nothing they can do for Ninja or my grandmother. We are just waiting it out.
I have been back and forth to Nashville with my BIL for a few months now. He finally got his and has just last week I brought him home from the hospital.
My son has moved back to Mississippi and I'm alone again to deal with everything.
I have had a stomach virus that is going around here.
It just never seems to let up.
I just wanted to let my friends know what is going on with me. Since I have not been in here much.
I am so sorry to hear about your babies. It is the hardest thing, I think, losing our babies. Also seeing them go through the pain they sometimes do.
Ninja has been on pain medicines for some years for the hip dysplasia. But now he is on stronger medicines.
My heart goes out to you with your losses. You will also be in my thoughts and prayers.

Oh Sweetie,
You really have been through the ringer lately.It sounds like Ninja has been worrying about you as much as you have about him. I know when I'm feeling extra bad, my little Dexter knows and stays closer. Maybe that is why he gets so upset when I have to go somewhere. Hubby says he acts all upset and worried as if I may not be coming home.
When will you know about the Parkinson's? My oldest brother has Parkinson's. How are you dealing with all the stress? Ireally wish there was someone there for you. I am also relieved that you have your other babies to be there for you when Ninja can't be. Don't worry about the little one, one of the others will help you both out. I'd love to hear sometime about the others.
I hope your brother-in-law is doing ok. And losing your grandmother is another tradgedy I'm sorry you have to go through.
Be strong Sweetie. You and the rest of your beloved family will be in my prayers.
Love You,
Leenie

You are right Leenie, it is a lot that I'm dealing with. All I can do is deal with things as they come up. I don't drink alcohol or smoke so I just deal with everything. It has helped to have my babies here with me. They give me so much joy. I watch them play and the antic they come up with for each other and me. It's funny many times.

Yes, your baby probably does worry each time you leave. I know mine do. Ninja goes out to the side of the yard and lays down by the fence and watches for me to come home...when he is not with me that is.
They all stand out at the fence and watch me leave the house.

Oh Mentalward, I feel so bad for you. You have been through as much as I have been lately. All of this must make us stronger for we can not just give in.
It is hard to lose anyone that we deeply care about.
It's hard to go about it alone too. I am alone now. I do have you and the rest of my family here. MyLot and my friends here do help me to hang in there.
I have been through more than anyone should endure in such a short time and so have you. Good things must be coming for us.
The one things that helps me be able to do what I must for Ninja is that he will not be in any more pain. He will also be waiting for me when I leave this world.
You come here when you need to as well. That's what we are all here for.
Take care dear and I'm sending you healing power and hugs. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Marti,
After reading your response I had to comment. When you talk about that long walk with Jake, it's just like me and my big black lab Zack. I had to take him in with hip displasia and when the vet took him away he looked back at me with the saddest eyes and I broke down. I had already been crying but I could hardly move. I felt guilt for even taking him in because of the it maybe the wrong decision, but I knew I shouldn't make him suffer anymore. That look haunts me every time I think of him. I had to go alone because my second hubby was dying as well. I had to make myself and him understand.
I too am sorry for those 3 1/2 years you suffered also. I believe Mylot is our saving grace.
Love You
Leenie

TT___TT i'm crying...

Thank you msedge, I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my precious poodle due to an accident a few years ago and I still grieve for him and when he was just a baby I lost his big brother due to illness. I had to take them to be put to sleep too.
I've lost 2 of my ferrets in the last year, one was old and the other one died from grief of losing the first one within a month.
Ninja has been with me through all of this. Also through the death of my daughter a few years ago this month.
I have lost others and don't know how much more I can take. Every time I lose one I say I won't get any more. But I am the type of person that loves animals so much. I must have one around. I need that companionship. I don't want to be totally alone.
My babies know when I'm sick or upset and they stay right with me when things are rough.
Yes, they do know we love them and they love us too.