I continue to dream....  

I dream of a better life for myself and my kids! I want to live in peace!!! I don't like to have fights or disagreements or raise voices. I actually miss living alone! I have been married for almost 5 years now; and to be perfectly honest with all of you; I kinda figure that I have made a huge mistake. My husband and I don't even sleep in the same bed anymore. I will let you all figure that part out. Yep, gave up on that almost two years ago! My husband can be a bit of a rude jerk is ALWAYS correcting me. He is very interruptive and never let's me finish a thought or a sentence. But, yet at the same time; he has yet to finish ONE project. He has projects all over this house (and I mean that quite literally) and he has yet to finish one of them!!! I have even been very specific with him and asked him point blank: just finish ONE project!! And, to date, he continues to kinda "flop" between one thing and then another. I honestly think that he has ADD!!! But, since he continually refuses to see a doctor, I can't help him. I also can't leave him because, frankly, I would not afford to be on my own at this point in my life. My car payment would actually hurt me if I were to be single again!! But, honestly, what I miss most is my FREEDOM!! My husband is the type that NEVER goes anywhere alone. He also claims that he doesn't like me to go anywher alone either. Go figure that one out??!!!! He is driving me nuts lately. I have found that I have little to no patience with him any longer. Most of that is because he seems to be seriously lacking in energy!!! And, since if I were to mention that to him; it would start a huge fight, all I know to do is to keep quiet and just continue typing on this computer!!!! Any thoughts, or suggestions??? I would be happy to read all of them.....