Do you have or ever had a prototype?  

I think that too.Thank you.

Thank you

There is always hope.

I will not give up

I agree with all you've said above.But I find it so sad when I see couples that are giving each other fake qualities just to make the other one "fit well" in their image of the ideal partner.
I also have a "prototype" in my head.But I see people the way they are without trying to change them or give them some illusionary quaities.But I am lucky..I found pretty fast the ideal partner for me.Don't you think so? *wink*

dear Tammuz.. you have found the ideal partner and I hope this continues time without end for you. You so deserve it as he, you!
You already know that the images we once had were not the be all and end all and that we ended up not 'settling' for something and someone less, but for something that became ever so much more important within our own personal growth and needs perception.
When I met my first wife, I was totally entranced by her beauty and charm.. an italian goddess with a piercing kind of blue eyes and she smiled at ME..ME!! and she accepted ME to be her lover!! Pretty powerful stuff. Pretty painful also. It raised me up and crashed me down like a tornado and then beat me against the rocks and nearly drowned me in the sea with its hurricane forces. I survived, despite not wanting to, but driven by the need to raise my daughter; to know her.
I found out with time, aging and gaining a little more maturity, that beautiful was a perception; something I could find around me in just about anything and it wasn't what I needed a person to be.

In a relationship, I needed something more.. a sense of wonderful within, a humour, a wit, a depth that could awe me and 'still BE there in the morning'.

I discovered that the person who meant the most, the one I would die for, was the one that gave to me a piece of her soul,so that I could look within and feel it and hold it and caress it and move my hand over the scars, and gaze upon it in wonder that another being could be so precious, so painfully precious.
And I trusted her,knowing that she would do the same..that she would see how frail, how fragile, how imperfect I was and yet somehow know that hiding, protecting himself within, was a good man, a kind and caring person that needed to love and be loved. Unconditionally but truly.

The tears well in my eyes because I think we all deserve this and I know there are those around me that do not understand, that cannot imagine this experience. and I feel a guilt, a selfishness that I have this and therefore have experienced more than I ever thought I would.

Why must we struggle so hard to reach this quest? Why am I so sad this very moment? perhaps because it is so incredibly awesome and I don't want to lose it.

*hugs*(this comes from both of us):
You are not selfish,you just finally received what you deserved and we are both so happy for you!
I,we know how it is to wake up in the morning and smile while facing life.
I know that my darling told you how we got started :)..after both having terrible relashionsips with other people.5 years of nightmare.Both of us got cheated,lived sorrounded by big fat lies,suffered,etc.Our paths had cut across before,but we never thought we will end up like this *smile*.And you know what?It might sound as a clichee..but "if it's written in the stars" it will happen eventually.We ended up together,we healed each other wounds without asking anything in return.And after 3 years,we still live in a modern fairy tell lol.
Those horrible experiences tought us to have no great expectations and start accepting each other,to give and receive without asking it.We take things the way they come and are.Because we don't expect anything..we cherish so much all the little gestures and we thank divinities for giving us the greatest present ever:ourselves.
Through comparation,what we are doing is similar to dogs: a dog with no master,who lives on streets will cherish even more a piece of bread than a beautiful champion dog who's used to be admired and to have the best of all for him.Everybody says that a dog from the streets is more loyal and loving than other dogs.He cherishes things he didn't have and he knows to appriciate the smallest gesture of love or the smallest bone you throw him.That goes to humans,also.
We both thank you for your beautiful post.And please don't feel sad.You are a wonderful man who can finally be happy.Carpe diem! :)

The end :))))

after reading both of your comments I feel like I just read a wonderfully, magical romance novel that leaves me with a deep sense of love and honestly gives me chills.
I do feel for anyone who has never had this kind of love in their lives.
I can't begin to tell you how blessed I feel to have my husband, I sometimes look at him and wonder how on earth I could have made it this far without his love to keep me going.

*giving napkin for eventual tears* elp,sweetheart..you were blessed for not going through what we did.
You are a wonderful woman who knows to appriciate all things(feelings,humans) around her.

Lots of hugs.

I know what you are saying there.. I build up my prototype because of some characters from the books I've read .It was not only one character but a bunch of them.Imagine the chaos that I've built! :)))

My guy was looking like well...a barbarian :))Remember Eric Bana in Troy?Or Viggo Mortensen in LOTR?heehee.Anyway the point is that I found HIM.Long hair,beard,dark eyes etc.And beleive me when I say that this is not only physically.*wink*And it's better than I've ever dreamed it could be.So your theory that "the one" will be better than Psmith it's true :))

And,dear gbala..I have one last question: Keanu Reeves in Matrix or in Dracula?

Ahh....i would like to thank every writer out there who wrote or stil write about..."me".LoL

I knew it!Now you'll start flattering yourself *rolling eyes* LOL

I thank them too! *wink*

profetu, i guess you qualify as a messer, not as prince charming, day -dreaming is bad for health----------

He's was promoted as KIng Messer lately hahahha:))

oh my God, its party time, thanks for sharing this, he has become lazy to share his good times, just congratulate him

I will start to argue with him until he starts posting again.No celebration available!He got lazy since I came here and I don't like that.

Keanu Reeves as Psmith!!

See he is an actor that is his job. Now in my in depth study of this specie I came across certain facts, they are notoriously starved for that challenging meaty role and nothing motivates them like the thought of winning an award. So I'll just hand him the Psmith series and tell him to get under the skin of that character and play that role for life convincingly ;) (that's challenging enough) and his award would this enchantress who has captured his heart and will love and treasure him all his life and beyond 0:)

Profetu, how did you figure out we were talking about you? *amazed* (you deserve an award for your detective skills), here we were using all these code names so that you don't get to know and you just sniffed out the truth!!! :))

LOOL..that's a good idea!Both Keanu and Psmith in one... :>
I never thought of that :)

Well one has to have ingenuity to be a witch!! By the way how is the defective detective??

I'll stick to my speech than.LOL
The defective detective is now frenzy posting around here somewhere..... :))))

Oh you...you..you....you little ...!!!!Here I go trying to make a good discussion..and you come with your puzzles!(for those who didn't realised that yet..I am joking here)
Yes,I discovered myself that it last up to 5 years lol.
I am relaxing and enjoying..but where are you running mister?*throwing tentacles* You are stuck with me here...for now!So you will RELAX AND ENJOY also.No one is pressuring you...=))))))))))))

You know that my "Mr perfect" prototype has a lot of defects included?I would get bored with a perfect man who does nothing wrong.

I have quite severe,pretentious and exigent regarding my Mr Perfect.And I usualy look up for defects first.I want to know them before the qualities.I discover later the qualities.

I am now very happy...I found a "match".I can accept his defects and I am always surprised of the amount of qualities that are covering those defects.I think it's called "accepting each other the way we are,without trying desperatly to change".

Thank a lot

Well..I had a dream..and the dream became reality.*wink*

So now..I am giving all my love to that reality.We share the space..and we sure do enjoy life!*big smile*

I am not forced to say that and I am not getting paid for saying that,either.

Are you a good cook gharinder?I am asking becouse the forst few times I made such a lousy food ...and if a man's love goes through his stomach first(it's a sying around here,I don't know if it's all around the world this one)..well..then my darling either loves very saulty and carbonised food,either his hope never died =)) But I made a delicious steak last night!

no , i am not a good cook, but my hub is very choosy in his food, he too likes to eat salt and i keep on trying different things making in microwave oven, that mostly turn out to be bad, i was just before an hour before trying some cookies, this was the second time i was trying. actually it is a receipe for conventional oven so didnt worked well in microwave.

I am sure that you'll manage to make something eatable out of his experiments.The secret is :always use a lot of sault and peper (so you can't actually feel the taste )hahha.

Did Profetu ever bragged with his green omelet which tasted like fish? :))))) It was veru tasty..but it looked like if you're not eating that in 2 minutes..that thing will start running around the house! :))))))))))))But he has some wonderful cooking skills!

"Out of your experiments "sory.
I tried to make some cookies once..it ended up carbonised also.I gave up trying to make cookies shortly after that episode.

oh i dont think he bragged about omlet, or may be i havent come across that, well i dont eat eggs, i eat vegetarian food, i had seen one of his post which was about non-vegetarians seen as murderers, so that's why i didnt responded to it, ---------and second important thing at that time i was undertraining to qualify as a messer-------------hugs

With an omelet like that...even if you are not a vegetarian you start reconsidering your options!lol

I wish you best of luck with Mr Indecisive than.

Thanks.

Everybody has a different perception about "perfect"...my "perfect" starts with the flows.

Thanks.

Yes,dear elp..I think that too.No money,power or good looks can trap me down.A gentle soul with a sharp mind can.
I think that a gentle soul can give me more happiness than any good looking and powerful person.A sharp mind can go beyond material and superficial goals in life.
By thinking like that..I am happier than words can ever say.
You are such a wonderful person...I am so glad that you found what you were looking for!
Thanks *hugs*