I'm evil and you're all disappointed with me...oh well!

@foxyfire33 (10009)
United States
August 17, 2008 7:00pm CST
My discussion last night went over like a ton of bricks. I've lost friends over it. (and my star dropped but that's minor). Why? Because I reacted humanly to an event. I said from the beginning I wasn't 'proud' of my inappropriate reaction but it was what is was. So excuse me for laughing aloud about something that really was terrible. I forgot that Foxy's world is never, ever supposed to have one single thing where I come out on top, even for a moment. I suppose I should go back to the way you all liked me before...the nice, diplomatic, kind, sweet little doormat. Is that what you want? I am a human being! I have feelings, I have been hurt beyond anything you all know about, my life is not the open book you all think it is. You all only know a fraction of what my life has been like for the past 20 years. So if you want to hate me over one hateful statement among all the niceties I usually dish out, fine go right ahead. This is me, this is who I am...mostly sweet, but wrong me and a whole other side comes out...maybe this is the point I should remind everyone that although I'm used to being called "Foxy" here, the real story is that I got called Fire because of my temper when people crossed me. So there it is. If you stay my friend because you know that on the whole I'm a good person, great...that just shows what a good friend you really are. If you go the other way with it...it's fine too, there's a good reason I don't care to let too many people close and this would be one of them.
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@sweetdesign (5151)
• United States
18 Aug 08
Oh foxy some days it just doesn't seem to go your way....ok a lot of days. While I didn't jump right in on the other discussion I did read some responses and I read your post. I am not going to call you evil I am not going to say I am disappointed in you I understand that you reacted that way because of a deep hurt that is still a wound in you. That is what humans do they react out of thier emotions. You are human we all are. I will tell you this when I had seen that my exhusbands current wife has gained a lot of weight and that he has lost all his teeth and s going bald I did laugh cause of the pain they have both caused me and my daughter. Sorry but the truth is i am human too. Don't let it get you down. Hang in there!
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• United States
18 Aug 08
By the way I would never stop being your friend over something like this. To be a friend is to accept your friend flaws and all, quirks and all. We all have our moments some in shining Glory and others not so shiny lol.
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@GardenGerty (115076)
• United States
18 Aug 08
I have read through the whole thing, and thrown in a couple of comments. I cannot judge you, I am not you. I also "got it" better when you talked about the "connection" feeling. I think some things do not work well on a discussion forum, and this is obviously one of them. I know you needed to explain what you felt to someone, but this did not work out well for you to do it this way.
@checapricorn (16065)
• United States
18 Aug 08
Hi foxy, [i]I am not sure if I responded to that topic but I know I have always your notification..ANyway, I am very open here and will never delete friends just because she/he was honest enough to what he/she thinks even if it is opposite to what I believed! We can't please everyone really but at least we know who are real friends here! enjoy![/i]
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@gemini_rose (16192)
18 Aug 08
Hiya foxy, I had not come across the discussion you were on about, you are not on my friends list so I would not get it through that. However saw a link on one of your responses so went and had a read. I know exactly what you meant and how you would feel, rewind to two years ago, hubby had an affair, girl he was with evil, manipulative, fruitcake, etc etc and not kidding the biggest liar ever. Of course no one saw it cept for me. And I hate her, and I mean that I will never forget what she put me and my kids through in order to destroy my family. Anyway gettin off the point, what you put in a discussion I would only think of, would never say it aloud or to anyone else because thats the reaction you get. I can see how it would have been shocking to people to read it, but how you felt is how I would feel if I heard the same news, I just would not say it aloud because I know that no one would understand why I felt that way about hearing that sort of news. But I totally understand why you would feel the way you did.I totally do not think you are a bad person.
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@sedel1027 (17851)
• United States
18 Aug 08
Who cares about those folks? We all do evil things in our lives that others look on poorly.
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@rocker21 (2717)
• India
18 Aug 08
Why dont people on mylot understand that when they post something on the discussion and if they are not positively accpeted they would straight away go on negative on others, Mylot is just like democracy, everyone has the right to speak and write here and no one is aanyone's slave to think and write, EVeryone just wants that their discuission must get POSITIVE responds and if they do get a negative , they already have the stupid NEGATIVE Rating there to shatter anyone;s opinions. Either have the guts to take the negative sides or just leave mylot (TO ALL WHO CANT HANDLE NEGATIVE RESPONDS!) have a nice day Foxy!
@foxyfire33 (10009)
• United States
20 Aug 08
I'm a bit confused which way you meant that LOL! I have no problem with people disagreeing with me and I won't rate them negative for doing so. I just think it's unnecessary to get mean and nasty which is borderline abusive (that will get a negative rating from me). As for other people, I don't understand why they have to give people negatives just because they disagree either. If someone doesn't like what I say and can't disagree with an ounce of tact, they can choose to just ignore me and not respond at all. Then no one gets hurt, there are no big long arguments. and people can agree to disagree and stay friends.
• United States
25 Aug 08
Well - I just sept a few days trying to find this discussion in the friends started list. I acutally found this through my email, & I'm replying from there. I was not the one who dropped you off my friends list. You dropped me, & made me waste time in finding this. I'm also not one of the ones responsible for your star dropping, being that I think the star system is too flawed & a waste of server space & resources. Also, I've only been around on a limited basis because I got busy with work, & because I don't have air conditioning, & I already blew out one computer, & yeah - even though I've had the windows opened, the smell of burnt electronics still lingers when I walk into that room. Therefore, I challenge that false accusation - whatever it is that caused you to just drop me. Now - onto the subject at hand. I remember that other discussion, but I cannot find it, & I already signed out of my email. Everyone has those feelings. No human being actually has a pure heart. Those who dropped you off their friends list (keep in mind that you dropped me - i didn't drop you.) probably are not courageous enough to stand up & admit that they've had those same feelings about someone's misfortune in the past. Personally, I'd say that you were courageous for starting that other discussion.
@Thoroughrob (11748)
• United States
21 Aug 08
I never thought of you being evil, just human. I know a few people really was upset by it, but I can't imagine that they have never had evil thoughts go through their head. Just be yourself.
@cjgrooms (4456)
• United States
20 Aug 08
I wouldn't worry to much about it we are all entitled to our feelings regardless of what others may think about it.
@Erilyn (3020)
• United States
19 Aug 08
Foxy hun I am sorry I didn't respond to this discussion earlier, I went and looked at the previous discussion and got wrapped up in in that one. You couldn't lose me as a friend over something you felt wether I agreed with it or not. In this case I do agree with you and know exactly how you feel about it. I applaud your bravery in admitting how you felt in that. I don't think that you should have to change who you are to appease your "friends" if that is the case how good of friends were they to begin with?
• Philippines
19 Aug 08
I am so late of what happened Foxy fire. I am sorry for my ignorance about what happen to you. But i will still remain as a friend since you did me no harm. I will still be there even if you don't need me.
@lingli_78 (12836)
• Australia
18 Aug 08
well, i never expect everybody to think the same with me or have the same opinions like me... that will be really boring... we are humans and God created us uniquely and an individuals... but we are united in Him... this is what we call unity in diversity... and this has to be respected by everybody... accepting each other differences... this is the hard thing to do i suppose... i'm sorry if you have been attack here for being different... that is really sad... people should be more open-minded than that... take care and have a nice day...
@Sissygrl (10914)
• Canada
18 Aug 08
Sorry you lost friends foxy, They must suck anyways to desert you because of one simple implusive thing you did and wrote about. . your right no one will ever know what you've gone through unless you tell them, and i accept what you've told me, and you seem like a pretty well rounded person to me, so HA HA to those who are missing out on your friendship now!
@Bluepatch (2480)
• Trinidad And Tobago
18 Aug 08
Whatever side you present to the world that is how they will take you. A close friend of mine just a few days ago complained about my jokes. The ones I make about him while we drive in his car. They're only jokes, I said, and he said, you don't know how the other person feels about them. He has a point. Then he says, make it a point, no matter how you feel, its milk and honey with other people, religiously, milk and honey. He has something to think about, I believe, milk and honey always works and you don't ever know the other person's mind, do you ?
@twallace (2675)
• United States
18 Aug 08
I see that you had a moment that you could not control and flipped out. I think that happens to everyone from time to time. I have noticed that they will delete things that they don't like when people vent. So you vented that is ok it happens to everyone. Have a good one.
@TessWhite (3147)
• United States
18 Aug 08
Oh Foxy - to hell with those who think you are evil over your honest feelings you had. Heck I agreed with you! We aren't perfect, none of us - even those I see HERE who are still trying to bash you. Let them walk a mile in our shoes and see how forgiving and kind they are THEN. Don't stress Foxy. I don't know if you are on my friend's list - I forget who all is from time to time. But I wouldn't delete you for showing genuine feelings over showing false ones. Cheer up, it will pass. Hugs
@roberten (3131)
• United States
18 Aug 08
Ebbs and tides, foxyfire33, this too shall pass!
@minnie_98214 (10572)
• United States
18 Aug 08
Ill still be your friend. I saw that discussion and well I skipped by it I wasnt gonna get into that one lol. You admited you werent proud of how you reacted we all have stuff like this happen in our lives we just dont all share it because people will attack you over it. Everyones got demons to fight inside themselves whether they admit it or not.
@keasling (723)
• United States
18 Aug 08
as a newbie who just found this and started reading I do not feel you are an evil person. If I was to post things I have done in response to people hurting me I am sure I will get the same deal. No one knows the whole story so no one will be able to truly understand what came over you when you found out the news. May not make a difference but I think you are an ok person with true emotions :)
@SViswan (12071)
• India
18 Aug 08
I didn't think you were evil. And your reaction was just human. We all know no one is perfect and no one knows much (besides what we post here) about another mylotter's life. I'm like you too...and can understand what you are trying to say. I'm basically a nice person....but someone harms me and they are going to get it back in kind. I'm not Mahatma Gandhi and if someone hurts me beyond what I can bear...God help them from my tongue and actions!