Stabbed in the Back...
@LetranKnight25 (33117)
Philippines
August 2, 2009 10:37am CST
I don't what got my chemicals in my body that got me this thinking...and probably remind me of something in the past..but i couldn't stop thinking about it.so, here it goes, no need to remind me of letting go of the past, just a quick flash...
A day just before the end of our Catholic Retreat, my best friend and I were having some serious conversation. well, it's part of our religion subject to go on these faith retreats as part of curriculum. so, continue; we talk about some problems i share some and he give advice..then since I was alone with him back then, I asked what were they (our friends) thinking and saying about me. because we have this group called f4 but I never really got the idea of being close to them. So, i asked it and he cautioned me not to get angry and disappointed. I said ok, "shoot"
Then after hearing those words, I was like...what the hell was I thinking asking that question. probably not the kind of friends that you feel you can trust..It remind me of what my mom said "be kind and generous but never reveal secrets".
Then, they came and saw my expression, but never found out why? they said "what ever problem that you have, you'll get over it" Like hell I would..
I guess that's one of the reasons i hide for a long time and even though there was a planned Reunion, i didn't attend or go. Some how i didn't like the idea of being another guy in real life
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I learned a lot from that day..you can't really please, trust, or think you found the right buddy...People change. No wonder my mom has so many so-called friends but none really knew her secrets..
Ever had a moment when you remembered being stab in your back..
.finding some horrible truth that you didn't expect from so-called friends.
.kindly share because i felt alone on this one...all of a sudden..
Damn Chemical Emotions
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I learned a lot from that day..you can't really please, trust, or think you found the right buddy...People change. No wonder my mom has so many so-called friends but none really knew her secrets..
Ever had a moment when you remembered being stab in your back..
.finding some horrible truth that you didn't expect from so-called friends.
.kindly share because i felt alone on this one...all of a sudden..
Damn Chemical Emotions2 people like this
11 responses
@tamarafireheart (15384)
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2 Aug 09
Hi Let,
You have a lot to learn about people, you have to learn to know people and choose a real friend who is very close that you can then trust them to tell things to him but your mother is right, I have only a few friends that really know my life history and I trust them with my life.
Tamara
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@cynicalandoutspoken (4725)
• United States
2 Aug 09
This is why I only have 3 very close friends and one of them I'm married to. But when i was younger and in high school this sort of thing happened all the time.
I had so-called friends sleep with my boyfriends, talk about me behind my back, make up lies about me so other people wouldn't like me...etc.etc.etc.
I learned your mothers lessons early and that is why some 15 years later I still keep my circle of friends to a minimum.
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@jillmalitz (5131)
• United States
4 Aug 09
Telling "secrets" to those we think we can trust is often a double edged sword. We want to have somebody to tell these to but we fear we will be hurt. Many times we realize that we can't always trust others. We can only trust God. Tell him and He will never hurt or desert you. If you do tell a friend you must always be prepared to have to listen to the truth as they see it. Use what ever they say to learn how to improve yourself and how to handle others.
@Hatley (163772)
• Garden Grove, California
6 Aug 09
Be a friend and be honest and you will find friends who are honest also. people do sometimes change but sometimes you read more into a person than they really are so take care who you make your
friend, know he or she before becoming really close.I have a best woman friend who I would always trust but she and I think pretty much alike,we would do anything for each other, and she wou ld never hurt me nor I her. I am an elderly woman but I have selfom been hurt by real friends,acquaintences yes but they are not really friends. take care you do not stab anyone in the backeither out of bitterness.
@dawnald (85137)
• Shingle Springs, California
6 Aug 09
I can't say as I've been stabbed in the back by a friend really, but then I don't let people get that close. Not so much out of fear as because I don't know how to.
@Nobody4me (165)
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20 Aug 09
if you're gonna look at my profile, you will see how am i so much lonely i can be. because i have been betrayed to the point that i almost got killed.
@blindmoongoddess (426)
• Philippines
3 Aug 09
Thanks for sharing your story. When you choose to love people, you allow yourself to be vulnerable to them. You want them to know you, so you let them inside you. You share things that others don't know about. It's risky, but love makes you vulnerable. I'm not talking about romantic love. I'm talking about being close to people, making them a part of your life.
It's just sad that people take trust for granted. It's a privilege to be allowed by somebody to see who he or she really is for real. It's a beautiful thing. For me, secrets are sacred. But not all people think this way. It's sad that some people even use secrets as weapons against their so-called friends.
But I guess the best thing to choose our friends wisely, but this is not a guarantee against betrayal. Still, I believe that there are friends worth-keeping. There are friends who are trustworthy.
@Mikaela_taz25 (1842)
• Philippines
3 Aug 09
I am happy that you're being honest with yourself. but at least you should have talk to us or me regarding this problem of your, how can you be so quiet all the time and started being honest in mylot. what happens if they found out the real you. be careful when you talk. we are always here for you, no matter what.
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@Jean25 (343)
• Philippines
3 Aug 09
I read it but still you know that's the main reason that it's hard for you to move one and take the heat again because you kept on clinging into the past. you can't reverse or go back there, were your friends i hope you understand. i can't believe this am going for abroad this month and you are still like that?? move on.
@ravirai8616561 (824)
• India
3 Aug 09
I been facing this from my childhood and I am used to it now.Better not be so much friendly to anyone so that when they ditch it hurts to your heart.
@TheGladys02 (104)
• Philippines
3 Aug 09
Its true that you cannot find a real friend. Its very minimal in this world. Yes its true what your mom said, "Never tell a secret" but if this secret makes you confuse why don't you ask opinion. Ask question that the topic that is not you but related to your secret and to the words that your friend told you. And please don't hide bcoz of it. why don't you go out mingle with your old friend try to analyz what was the meaning of that words. Only you can answer that becoz they were you friend. And then then try to correct what is wrong at past and move on. Do not live in the past. Try to answer all the necessary question that disturb you and make changes and move on....
