Why cant it be?

@maria1081 (1252)
Philippines
January 7, 2010 1:43pm CST
Ever since I was dumped by my last boyfriend I resort my attention at online dating. Was I desperate? No, I’m not. It’s my way of mending a broken heart. To gradually forget the memories I shared with him in the past two years of my life and in order to bring back my self worth as a person. It was painful in hoping and believing in something that would eventually never happen. I mourned by crying and asked myself hundred times if it was my fault? Was it wrong to love someone more than yourself? It was wrong in my case because I became dependent on him and so with my happiness. And when I lost him, I lost myself. Now I’m trying to find the way back into love. Is someone out there for me? I’ve met several men online from different parts of the globe, some asking me what I’m wearing which is totally a turn-off for me. I’m not into playing games, its not that I’m old fashion, it’s simply out of my values. Why is it so hard to find a soul whom I can simply talk with and laugh with? Is that too much to ask? Then, K came. Where on earth he had been all this time? I met him on date.com. We have many similarities in terms of the qualities of the person we’re searching for. We have same values on family and marriage. If soul mate is true, he might be my soul mate. But soul mate doesn’t always end up together. After months of knowing him, he still didn’t mention anything about having a relationship with me. Maybe because he lives in states and I live in Southeast Asia. Furthermore, He will always be special to me and I’m glad I met him. note: originally written on 6/9/2008
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• United States
7 Jan 10
This was written a long time ago, how are things going for you now?
@maria1081 (1252)
• Philippines
7 Jan 10
Hi! Still the same, I'm single and he's still single and we are still friends. Thats why the question is why cant it be?
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• United States
7 Jan 10
well for one thing you live in seperate countries. HAve you ever even met in person? Maybe ask him how he feels about you?
@maria1081 (1252)
• Philippines
8 Jan 10
He said he wanted to see me. I never ask him how he feels about me, I'm shy and afraid to ask.
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