Will You Be Bitter Or Get Better?

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It could be a hellish week for me, depending on how you would see it. I was rushed off to the hospital at 2 am on Monday and stayed there until today. I had more bad news and it broke my heart into pieces. I wanted to just scream and shout and just be angry. It was easier that way but I have a choice. Either I will get better or bitter. Soar like an eagle or sulk in a corner forever. Three years ago I underwent a thyroidectomy ( removal of the thyroid glands) the surgeon completely removed both my thyroids because one thyroid gland was diseased. It was 10 times more than its normal size. I risked everything for this surgery... risked my very own life because my family has a known allergy to general anesthesia, because I wanted to get better I decided to stake everything on the line. I trusted my surgeon completely because we graduated from the same school and had known each other through the years since I was a student and worked in the same hospital. My surgeon opted for a total thyroidectomy instead of a partial or subtotal thyroidectomy and he tried to explain it to me. Fast forward, I just found out as I was staying in the hospital from another surgeon that I was a case of medical malpractice! The other surgeon should have not removed my normal thyroid so I would not be dependent on thyroid drugs for the rest of my life, by doing so he placed my whole life at risk! I have a low immune system and that means I would easily get sick. Last year I was diagnosed with a mitral valve prolapse that aggravated everything and also I have carpal tunnel syndrome which is excruciating, as my now surgeon told me that it may not be carpal tunnel but it gave out a false result because of my thyroid hormone deficiency! I am going through a tough time, it is not just physically challenging but emotionally and spiritually as well. But as I have said I do have a choice and my choice is to get better. Grow from this experience and help others along the way. I plan to write articles about thyroid disease, what not and what you should do. I want to get the word out there and hope it would reach millions of people. As for the surgeon my family is deciding whether we would press charges against him. I know I have a solid case against him to rip his license off but I would pray about it however I plan to meet with him and talk to him personally. He sentenced me to a life of drug dependence, living completely on synthetic thyroid hormones and cardiac drugs and food supplements. The grim part is that I would never get better and I am very young! But I'll let God handle this and trust in His will. I'll praise my way out of this storm, look to Him and focus on Him and not on my present circumstance. He'e the only solution and the only resolution! My God knows what is best and I am forever secured in an everlasting arm. He neither sleeps nor slumbers, His eyes is on me and I have no reason to fret and worry. I will give thanks to Him for His loving kindness and I'll keep on singing praises to Him all day long, no matter what my circumstance is!