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Some of this is most likely because I'm in pain and that always seems to make one more emotional, but I've been thinking about this since I've gotten home from my surgery yesterday. As some of you will know from my other posts I had my I had my gallbladder taken out yesterday, and while it is routine, hearing the possibility that I could have died from the surgery if a wrong snip was made, or the day before with the scope thing they did to get the rouge gallstone out of my bile duct, has made emotional today. I know hundreds of people go through these procedures everyday and get through them without any problem at all. But I guess it's made me realized how much of a blessing life is. I know some of it is most likely my anxiety played on irrational fears while I was at the hospital but it's made me realize how many things were survive everyday - how blessed we are to still be living, and having the experiences we are. I'm in tears right now, not able to put most of my feelings into words. I've had a hard time of things for as long as I can remember, including a few years of feeling suicidal after loosing my grandmother who rasied me, my fiance, and a good friend all within months of each of other about seven years ago, with the anniversary of the car crash that took my fiance and the friend coming up - I'm usually depressed as can be, but today I feel blessed to be alive, and happy to be alive - and I guess it's been too long since I've felt this way. I have a day of myloting, and making calls to family and friends that I've been putting off because of depression today. So myloters, what situations have you experienced have made you snap to the fact that you're blessed?