The Turmoil Has Ended

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These past few weeks I have been facing a lot of problems that really made me so stressful and sad. I had never been this sad, hurt and depressed. But I guess it's just part of growing up. This is in relation to my first discussion entitled "I Finally Met Myself" where I had problems with my boyfriend. Regarding that, I thought we already solved the problem, but little did I know that there's still conflict within myself. My ego was badly hurt due to that certain event we've been through that it unconsciously devoured me to hatred. I just really can't accept the realities I discovered. But I didn't know that until I experienced frequent nightmares that flashes back all those unwanted memories. And because of that, I tend to be very moody especially when we're together yet I didn't mean to be like that. This continued for days until this early morning, I was awakened by a nightmare again. And during this point, I realized that every nightmare I experienced was because of my repression toward the matter. I don't want to face it; I want to runaway. But I know that I can't possibly do it. And so what I did was to reminisce all of the things that reminded me of the bitterness that we have, all the hurts I acquired until it hurts no more. After that I read a Bible and slept again. Surprisingly, when I woke up, I feel very light deep inside. Now I know that the turmoil has finally ended.