Fighting Addiction

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Somehow, I managed to resist it this morning. I turned away, made a decision not to give in. And yet, I am still thinking about it. It still haunts my thoughts. Even as I congratulate myself for being strong, I am too weak to keep the temptation completely at bay. Maybe I will go back? Maybe it wouldn't be so wrong, just this once? I am a yarn addict. I cannot resist anything to do with yarn, thread, cotton thread, wool, knitting, crocheting, looming... I am obsessed. I watch knitting videos several times a day. If there is some operation in knitting or looming that I find clumsy or difficult, I search until I find the one person who has discovered the easy, no-fuss way to do it. I want a new loom, crochet hook, size of knitting needles, etc. Not just today, but every day. I want to be working on three or four projects at once. And I want yarn. I want the soft yarn, the bulky yarn, the self-striping yarn and the yarn that looks like Fair Isle knitting without the complicated patterns. This morning, I didn't spend my Amazon gift card on a new loom. I still want it. I will still get it. But I have to finish the project I am doing on another loom first. I need structure, I need guidance. I need rules and I need to stop flitting from one thing to another. I need to stay away from yarn stores on online browsing. But I can't. Just one more hook, just one more skein of yarn, just one more new stitch demonstrated on a Youtube video... just a little more... Do you have an obsession? Are you fighting an addiction to a hobby?