The Finale
By Felicia Kane
@DesirousDreamer (34776)
Peoria, Arizona
May 27, 2016 1:34pm CST
So the reason why I haven't posted in a few days is because I am dealing with finals. Ooof it has been a mess. So first off, my professor is an odd one. She only wants things done HER way. We have to make a website branding ourselves as a writer. I am a person who loves animation and also writes a lot of thriller scripts. Week one I tell her this because we have an introductory thing we had to fill out. Week one she tells us we need to express ourselves, show the kind of writers we are and blah blah blah. Here we are on week four and she says this "Felica, you are one of the last people I grade and I have tell you, you and your portfolio are a disappointment." Um...excuse me? You called me a disappointment? But why? "Your portfolio is too gloomy and dark." But...Wait. WAIT WAIT WAIT Miss lady person! You tell me to brand myself as a writer and I did, I am a dark natured person. I like things black and grey! It shows my writing that I do things creepy and dark. Everyone loved the way my portfolio looked. So she gives me a bad grade because it was too gloomy. She insulted me and expects me to do what makes her happy...She is the professor, she shouldn't be giving her opinion, she needs to give her critique as a PROFESSIONAL. So in the past few days I have had several break downs and all yesterday I stay on the couch I only moved like twice to fix my ENTIRE website. There is not one flaw in my bio, if she doesn't like the look of my portfolio...I think she just doesn't like me.
She also tells me that my YouTube channel had no right to be my portfolio....All the other students put their youtube channel on and did I not mention I love animation? She tells me she wanted to take a big crayon to my bio, treating me like a freaking child. She has done this to no one else. She hasn't INSULTED anyone else BUT me. She has failed other students but never they told me she didn't treat them the way she treated me. Now is that fair? No, but I must bite my tongue and do what she wants. I made my portfolio "brighter" and all that bull. Just to make her happy. It wouldn't be college if finales did not want to make you cry constantly.
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5 responses
@yukimori (10193)
• United States
27 May 16
Holy crap, hon. I came here after reading another post you made, and that is just so completely wrong on so many levels.
I know it's hard to set the emotion aside from this, especially where something as personal as a writing portfolio is concerned... but I'm going to ask you to do so. It's absolutely not normal for finals in college to make you want to constantly cry. What's more, your professor's conduct is abhorrent.
The problem is her. Not you.
What I would do is soldier through what you need to do to get through the end of the class, and the grade. And then I would sit down and write a complaint to the department head. She told you to create a website that brands yourself as a writer. It sounds like you did so, and she just didn't like what you presented. If that's the case, I feel that the department head needs to be made aware of what's going on. Especially with the way that it sounds like your professor decided that it wasn't acceptable for you to include a YouTube channel, but other students weren't criticized for that. And the bit about wanting to take a crayon to your bio? Yeah, that [expletive redacted] just needs to learn how constructive criticism works, because that sure isn't it.
And if you happen to get a survey to complete through the school, be sure to take it. But remember, the key is to remain factual and put all the emotion you're feeling aside.
@yukimori (10193)
• United States
28 May 16
@DesirousDreamer And that's why I suggested filing a formal complaint with the department head. Classes are hard enough without an uphill battle against the person teaching them, and it sounds like she completely terrorized you this semester.
Unfortunately, sometimes we do have to just suck it up and do things their way, but things like telling you she wanted to take a crayon to your bio are just out of line. She's ridiculous.
@DesirousDreamer (34776)
• Peoria, Arizona
27 May 16
The professor is not a nice lady. I does pick favorites because I know who her two favorites are and one mentioned that she knows. The professor was totally not professional and she is going to get a really bad review in our evaluation because I have never felt so threatened.
@Hatley (163772)
• Garden Grove, California
27 May 16
She sounds like a diffucult professor but I need to ask a favor.By not making paragraphs
you make this difficult to read.Some will not bother on a long all in one post.I realize
you are very bright and well educaterd so I kept on reading but paragraphs would
make it so much easier to read.
@DesirousDreamer (34776)
• Peoria, Arizona
27 May 16
Um...I would have appreciated that comment on ANY other post than this one. I'm already stressing out enough. I'm trying to VENT so I don't care how my post looks! I'm sorry but I'm already breaking down enough. I didn't need this.
@celticeagle (189793)
• Boise, Idaho
28 May 16
My mother had a bad teacher when she was school. Mom wanted to be a teacher and she was a very intelligent woman. But, this teacher was mean and made the whole school thing such a horrible experience that she quit her dream. I hope that you can get past this. I also hope you can steel yourself and make it through for the grade and your own peace of mind. Personally, I think that professors get a way with far too much.
@Daljinder (23193)
• Bangalore, India
27 May 16
Please don't let that professor put you down. Tell you what. You love animations don't you!? I do too. Make an ugly cartoon out of that professor and make your own story with it. LOL Have fun!
Yeah I know I am telling you to waste your time doing silly things during finals no less. But crying and feeling low isn't helping either is it?
The one important thing: Do not let her change you or even the way you like things just to make her happy!! That is one of the biggest thing which will sit heavy on your heart.
Sending lots of positive and encouraging thoughts your way!!! And sending lots (expletives) to you know who. 
@JohnRoberts (109841)
• Los Angeles, California
27 May 16
You are in Laramie? Is that where the University of Wyoming is located?
