I can't enjoy this holiday

@shaggin (74988)
United States
December 23, 2016 6:59pm CST
My heart aches so much. After 5 years it should not hurt so much to think about my husbands death. I can't enjoy this upcoming holiday. I am so full of anxiety and sadness. It literally makes me sick to my stomach. My daughter had no school today and my son had a half day of cyber school. Tomorrow my kids and I have to go to my father in laws for a very tiny get together. On Christmas we will be going to my parents for an even smaller get together. I have to bake some cookies and I don't want to do anything. I've been quiet on mylot the past few days I just having to much sadness to be here chatting. I wrapped my niece and nephews presents (While watching "me before you") and put them under my tree until Christmas when I take them to them.
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Judy Evans
@JudyEv (381796)
• Rockingham, Australia
24 Dec 16
I am so sorry this is such a sad time for you. Five years isn't long really but I hope over time things will get easier. Sending you positive vibes and hugs.
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ShannyBananny
@shaggin (74988)
• United States
25 Dec 16
It feels like no time at all and an eternity at the same time. It is such an odd thing to try to describe. We are going to my parents soon for dinner. I made cookies last night to take to the small get together at my father in laws house. Today I made Peach Cobbler Dump Cake, Special Mashed Potatoes, and Sour Cream Cherry Pie. This is the first break I have had to sit for a few minutes and relax.
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ShannyBananny
@shaggin (74988)
• United States
28 Dec 16
@JudyEv Yes my family loved the food I made!
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Judy Evans
@JudyEv (381796)
• Rockingham, Australia
27 Dec 16
@shaggin You have gone to a lot of trouble with your cooking. I'm sure people will appreciate the effort you've made.
Laurel (L_B)
@Happy2BeMe (99353)
• Canada
24 Dec 16
thinking of you and your children and sending you hugs
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ShannyBananny
@shaggin (74988)
• United States
26 Dec 16
My children loved their gifts and had a great holiday. Thank you for your kind thoughts!
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Laurel (L_B)
@Happy2BeMe (99353)
• Canada
26 Dec 16
@shaggin glad to hear that
Tina Dalasinski
@Tina30219 (82978)
• Onaway, Michigan
24 Dec 16
So sorry you are going through this I hope it passes soon for you. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
ShannyBananny
@shaggin (74988)
• United States
26 Dec 16
Thank you very much. Usually leading up to the actual day is harder then when the day actually arrives. How was your Christmas? Maybe you have written about it I will go look now!
s sivasubrahmanyam
@shivamani10 (11035)
• Hyderabad, India
24 Dec 16
Oh...very nice idea of keeping them under Christmas tree.
ShannyBananny
@shaggin (74988)
• United States
24 Dec 16
It just makes it look a little more festive in here.
Dena Miller
@Dena91 (17029)
• United States
24 Dec 16
My prayers are with you
ShannyBananny
@shaggin (74988)
• United States
24 Dec 16
Thank you very much. I have been laying on the couch reading a Christmas novel. I am going to bed shortly and look forward to getting to sleep in later tomorrow morning.
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Manisha
@ms1864 (6882)
• Bangalore, India
24 Dec 16
I'm sorry to hear this time is bringing you sadness. That movie might be hard to watch in your situation. Hope something makes you feel better before the year ends.
ShannyBananny
@shaggin (74988)
• United States
26 Dec 16
I had no idea before I started watching it what a sad movie it was going to be. I cried so bad at the end. I hate watching movies that make me cry. If I had realized it was going to be a sad movie I wouldn't have watched it!
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