Please don't hurt me.

@eileenleyva (27555)
Philippines
October 26, 2017 1:38am CST
The goal is to be virtuous. To be like Christ, our Lord and Savior. For He is full of virtues. Through my youth, I discovered, patience was my waterloo. But I worked on it. It's all in the mind. I practiced. Ha ha I thought about kindness and compassion and goodness. I was perhaps just naturally cantankerous. Easily peeved. A fault-finder. But I overcame. The temperance worked. I became good. People told me so. One old lady even remarked, when she asked what my name is, that my name denotes goodness, as my being and character emit. She saw I was taken aback, and she explained that she had been watching me and how I carry my self towards others for a very long time now. I said thank you. That was the good part of me. I have a character flaw. I do not know how to forgive. I am always good and kind, but when one hurts me in any way, that is the end of my relationship towards that person. I cannot forgive. So, please don't hurt me.
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@magallon (19279)
• Philippines
26 Oct 17
I think we almost have the same behavior. I am kind. I am friendly. but if ever you'll do something bad to me, I don't know if I can forgive you...
@eileenleyva (27555)
• Philippines
26 Oct 17
I have deleted friends from my life. The things they did, I would not want to feel the hurt again. So, I slashed them out. I have no strength to call them and offer forgiveness, I just want them banished from my life. In fact, I do my best to think no further of them. It couldn't be a good thing absolutely, deleting friends. But once hurt, I become oblivious to such characters. Sigh.
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@eileenleyva (27555)
• Philippines
26 Oct 17
@magallon Which reminds me of St. Ignatius de Loyola, he prayed for God to take his will, his mind, his memory. The memory comes back. And when I dwell on reminiscing, the hurt comes back. I think it forgiving can ge done, it is the forgetting that is difficult. Thanks for the thought, Cristy, probably the thing I need to meditate on.
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@magallon (19279)
• Philippines
26 Oct 17
@eileenleyva Actually i have forgiven some of them. But i cannot forget the bad things that they did to me.
@jstory07 (148720)
• Roseburg, Oregon
26 Oct 17
No one wants to be hurt. It is hard to forgive people when they hurt you.
@eileenleyva (27555)
• Philippines
26 Oct 17
Yes. That is true. Not that I am sensitive. But why hurt? It is so easy to love. It is so easy to feel happy for someone. Hurting cause pain and sadness.