Depression Can just kiss my...

United States
May 23, 2019 3:51pm CST
I'd like to say several expletives. I really would. I was having a perfectly good morning, and this had to kick in. This anxiety and depression that tells me everything is NOT okay, when in reality, it isn't all that bad. This depression that wants me to sink into my bed and just cry, instead of toughening up and pushing through it. Don't you hate how depression makes you do the opposite of what you know would fix the situation? Right now, I know this tendrils that are snaking their way at me would vanish if I just sat down, kept busy and made a gameplan.. It just suck that right now I'd rather do the complete opposite. I know I can push through this, I've done it a million times before, but it's sucks having to push yourself out of the water when you're wearing a wool dress and carrying a basket of apples. I don't have anything to ask, or anything more to add. 99.99 percent of you have been through this before, so you know... Depression can kiss my grits!
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@AmbiePam (51102)
• United States
23 May
I gave in the other day, and took something to make me sleep half the day away. Some days I don't have it in me to fight. I acknowledge it will get better, but on occasion the weariness seeps too far into my bones.
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• United States
23 May
I don't have anything I can take. I never have liked taking medicine. I just have to get through it on my own, though right now my stomach feels sick and I am so tired. I'm trying to beat back the thoughts in my head though. I am so here because right now that will help me, even if only slightly.
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@ParaTed2k (22938)
• Sheboygan, Wisconsin
23 May
I wish just knowing the anxiety isn't about anything real would help, but it really doesn't. I got pretty good at pushing through my anxiety attacks foe a lot of my life. Apparently that's pretty exhausting though because eventually it just lead to a pretty harsh burnout. Keep going though, be who we want to be inspired of the anxiety and depression. That's the best way to tell it to kiss our butts! :-)
• United States
23 May
I have literally worked through anxiety attacks. My co-workers asking me if I am okay and me telling them that I am, lying straight to their face because I knew taking a break would just have me even more anxious. I burnt out from that myself, ended up making myself sick and having to take a few days off. Of course that ultimately helped and hindered. I'm doing what I know helps me cope, that's all I can do.
@ParaTed2k (22938)
• Sheboygan, Wisconsin
23 May
@ScribbledAdNauseum My burn out made me take 17 years off... And counting. lol Not that there are things I can't do, but I can't be a paramedic or do Emergency Services anymore. But I can teach music lessons so I do. ;-)
• United States
23 May
@ParaTed2k I think it's all about making things work for you. You can't force yourself to do something you aren't comfortable with. Only you know your own boundaries and limits, and it doesn't have to make sense to anyone else. Of course that doesn't man we don't beat ourselves up over it anyhow.
@CarolDM (28236)
• United States
23 May
I can relate and it is unfair at times. Feel better!
• United States
23 May
I have my best friend keeping me sane at the moment. She knows what to say to help me along. I know what to to do to help me from the cliff face. Doesn't make it any easier, but I'm coping. It helped that I put it out here as well. I don't like hiding behind my depression, even when it's the easiest thing to do.
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@CarolDM (28236)
• United States
23 May
@ScribbledAdNauseum Talking and writing usually helps me.
• United States
23 May
@CarolDM Writing has helped me in the past as well. I've had some really bad bouts of depression where nothing but time seemed to help. I'm watching a video on youtube of the ocean, it's waves gently rolling into shore. The music helps, but I keep thinking "The ocean is bigger than me or my worries."
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@JustBhem (51300)
• Davao, Philippines
24 May
Depression and anxiety, they never let me go but I try not to drown myself. I need to fight or else I’m losing myself.
• United States
25 May
It's hard to fight through depression and anxiety but it's worth it. I just get bad for a day or two. It used to be that I would be in bed for a week not wanting to do anything, or talk to anyone.
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@JustBhem (51300)
• Davao, Philippines
25 May
@ScribbledAdNauseum How long have you been dealing with it?
@LadyDuck (223101)
• Switzerland
24 May
Keep yourself busy, do something you like that makes you feel better. Get well soon.
• United States
25 May
Today is better than yesterday was. I listened to calming music and distracted myself as best I could, which helped a lot. I'm feeling optimistic today.
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@LadyDuck (223101)
• Switzerland
25 May
@ScribbledAdNauseum I am so glad you feel better.
@Gillygirl (29952)
• Sutton, England
23 May
It's horrible to feel like that, hope you feel better soon.
• United States
24 May
I am feeling better now. It was mostly anxiety and I've worked through it with the help of a friend. It's no fun having to deal with, but atleast I didn't have a full blown attack.
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@Gillygirl (29952)
• Sutton, England
24 May
@ScribbledAdNauseum I'm pleased you are over it.
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@celticeagle (122853)
• Boise, Idaho
23 May
Have to keep your mind on something else. I have it all of the time so it is hard. Anxiety is horrible. Remember to breath.
• United States
24 May
I grounded myself with some music and letting my breath match the beat of the music. I am just glad that it didn't get worse. I've had some pretty bad anxiety attacks.
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@celticeagle (122853)
• Boise, Idaho
24 May
@ScribbledAdNauseum ......I know how they can be. I find breathing and keeping busy helps.
@Nevena83 (26670)
• Serbia
23 May
Depression can really be a very difficult situation.
• United States
23 May
It really can be, but I am trying to get through it. I have relaxing music on in the background and I am trying to focus on mylotting and just doing other things to distract me.
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@Nevena83 (26670)
• Serbia
25 May
@ScribbledAdNauseum It's really a good tactic to overcome depression.
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@Courtlynn (61633)
• United States
28 May
Sorry you had a day.
• United States
28 May
Yes, I am just glad it was over quickly.
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@Poppylicious (10715)
24 May
Sometimes the real strength comes from embracing the depression and giving in to it. If your mind needs a break, then that's what it needs. I know that my current bout is work-related, and lack of work-life balance. How do I know? Because I finally admitted defeat and saw my GP. I've been signed off work for two weeks now and feel so much better. However, if I return to work too soon, everything will come crashing down again. I'm still exhausted, I still hurt a bit, I still lack energy and desire, but not to the extent of the last few months. Feel good, soon.
• United States
25 May
I am feeling better today. I know how you feel about work - life balance. I had a time where all I did was go into work, come home sleep and do it all over again. It really got to me and I started out just snapping at everyone and everything, then the physical symptoms began and I ended up having to be written out. Of course my overhead boss wasn't exactly thrilled with that but he had to get over it.
@dya80dya (15360)
• Romania
23 May
I can relate. Today I slept until 12 pm. I was anxious, dizzy and weak.
• United States
23 May
I am sorry to hear that. I know how that feels.
@NJChicaa (57743)
• United States
23 May
I’m feeling anxious today too
• United States
23 May
I was feeling shaky earlier. I'm listening to music to try to ground myself.
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