I'm disappointed in myself
@Nevena83 (65282)
Serbia
May 24, 2019 2:39pm CST
Good evening
I just had a fight with my mother and father. I'm so tired of it. He is as always drunk. My mother who always supports him, a child who does not respect me at all .... It is obvious that in vain I got life from God.
I devoted my whole life to my parents and my child, and in return I got to feel like a trash.
I'm mad at myself for destroying my life ... I'm disappointed in myself, because I did not do anything good in my life. And I do not think it's a blessing for me to give birth to a baby, because he will be the same as my father and my brother. And in the future it will destroy its family of life.
Probably people who can not have children would be much better parents.
Hope your day was much better?
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19 responses
@DianneN (246770)
• United States
24 May 19
You haven’t destroyed your life and have so much to live for. You may not be able to change your parents or brother, but you have a son to raise. He is your life, and you are doing a wonderful job raising him on your own. All you need is patience and prayers. 
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@Nevena83 (65282)
• Serbia
24 May 19
@DianneN I would be the happiest if it was just a phase. But he says the same to say as they are, the same behavior, as if he were not my child. He does not have to be like me, maybe I'm not the best person, I want him to be better than me, I want him to be a good man. I am very disappointed in myself, but I know that I will always be the same, but I am afraid that all that I thought to do good for him, in the end, it turns out that I did everything wrong. Yes, I know it's hard for him, because he grows up in this family, but I guided all the battles myself, I never interfered with him, I always protected him ...
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@Nevena83 (65282)
• Serbia
24 May 19
Now you cried me with nice words. Thank you for your support. I can not describe how much support I need, even if I do not know anyone here, many of you often give me strength. I'm afraid my child will not be better. I thought I was doing the best for him, and then he grew up and realized that I did not teach him to be the way he is now and it kills me.
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@snowy22315 (169951)
• United States
24 May 19
Adolescence is a rough time for many kids and parents. I know you feel trapped in an awful situation..However, one day at a time..it can get better. Just try to take baby steps toward a better future... We support you!
. We support you!4 people like this
@snowy22315 (169951)
• United States
24 May 19
@Nevena83 I understand. Maybe you could try expressing yourself in a letter. However if you try to take steps forward for a better life..he will see you are trying. Go to the church if you can't find anything else..at least that is what I would do ask for their help.
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@Nevena83 (65282)
• Serbia
24 May 19
@snowy22315 But my child would never agree to change the place of residence.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
24 May 19
I agree with all the advice you have here and I think you need to just walk away and go to another place, even having no money someplace else is better than being here where they make you feel unloved.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
24 May 19
@Nevena83 Nothing that is worthwhile comes easy, just saying. You don't know what you might find, it could be wonderful.
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@Nevena83 (65282)
• Serbia
25 May 19
@BelleStarr Sometimes I think my life will always be full of sorrow.
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@moffittjc (118442)
• Gainesville, Florida
25 May 19
I am so sorry to hear this. I know from many of your previous posts and comments that you have struggled with the behavior of your parents. I see from your comments below that at one point you had an opportunity to work abroad. Could you pursue opportunities like that again now that your son is older? I really feel that your best option is to get away from your parents by any necessary means.
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@moffittjc (118442)
• Gainesville, Florida
27 May 19
@Nevena83 No you're not. Youre not tired of your life. You've just hit a rough patch. You have a lot to look forward to in the future.
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@Nevena83 (65282)
• Serbia
27 May 19
@moffittjc I'm not sure something good will happen.
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@just4him (306137)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
25 May 19
I'm sorry to read this. I'm sure you have good qualities to share. It's not your fault your father is a drunk and your mother supports him over you. I'm sure there is something good in your relationship with your son. It sounds like you need to take a breather and relax. Find a place to be alone away from the strife you're feeling at home.
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@just4him (306137)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
26 May 19
@Nevena83 I had a rough home life when I was a kid. There were times I needed to get away from everyone. I found a place that was all mine and nobody knew where it was. I would go there and just sit for an hour or two some days when it was particularly bad.
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@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
25 May 19
God created you for an amazing purpose! You might not always feel it but that's the truth. God loves you. The amazing thing is when we say yes to Jesus-we are adopted into HIS family-not our birth family any longer...
Your son will be amazing like you are-not like anyone else!! You will be his example and you will keep him on the right path. With God's help, you got this!!
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@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
25 May 19
@Nevena83 God gives the toughest battles to His strongest soldiers. Never forget that!
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@didinedhia (8475)
• Algeria
31 May 19
like i said !!! you must you must start thinking of changing everything !!!!!! it is a must! you have no choice
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@Nevena83 (65282)
• Serbia
2 Jun 19
@didinedhia Yes, I know and I know you're right.
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@didinedhia (8475)
• Algeria
1 Jun 19
@Nevena83 you have to find the way! you have too im really serious
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@didinedhia (8475)
• Algeria
27 May 19
i hate people who drink !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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@Nevena83 (65282)
• Serbia
28 May 19
@didinedhia It's hard to fight him every day.
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@didinedhia (8475)
• Algeria
28 May 19
@Nevena83 yes they doeverytime! how everything go well for you sweety
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@LowRiderX (22907)
• Serbia
24 May 19
Ohh, I'm so sorry to read something like this... I do not even know what to tell you... so sorry
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@Nevena83 (65282)
• Serbia
25 May 19
@LowRiderX No, he's the same and when he's drunk and he's sober. What hurts me most is the behavior of my son.
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@LowRiderX (22907)
• Serbia
25 May 19
@Nevena83 Do not think about it. You will not achieve anything if you talk to him while he's drunk, you have to wait to get rid of it. Then perhaps you can achieve something, until then, let him sleep
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@1hopefulman (45123)
• Canada
27 May 19
@Nevena83 I sympathize with you and your situation.
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@marguicha (215405)
• Chile
26 May 19
I had a good family life. I think that if I had been in your case, I´d flee from a house with so many problems. Are you able to work?
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@marguicha (215405)
• Chile
26 May 19
@Nevena83 I don´t know how it is in your country. But in others, one can rent a room.
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@Nevena83 (65282)
• Serbia
27 May 19
@marguicha We can only do this in hotels, which is very expensive. Here we can only rent larger or smaller apartments, with furniture or without ...
@RasmaSandra (73407)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
26 May 19
Keep in mind that the Lord is ever watching over you and you still have much to live for. You cannot change your family but you have to live for your son. Just take the time for lots of love and understanding and your son will see how much you love him.
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@cacay1 (83223)
• Cagayan De Oro, Philippines
26 May 19
Don't feel disappointed of having a baby.He is more than gold.Just teach him the right values so that when he grows up, they won't anymore depart from him ( John Locke).Life is so precious and beautiful despite odds we encounter we are still blessed for having a life given by our dear God .Cheer up lady, look at the stars above and the moon that shine our ways during our darker nights for in the morning, the morning sun always awaits us to shower another hope and joys. Life is what we make it, so let's rejoice life.Amen.
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@Nevena83 (65282)
• Serbia
26 May 19
But my child does not behave the way I teach him, but as he sees from my parents and my brother, and it kills me. I do not want to be like that, I want to be a good man.
@raveeen (3457)
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25 May 19
Help your self to reach you goal on what you truly desire. Don't be too harsh on yourself, you're a nice person maybe you are just upset or what. Just let the anger and sadness comes out to your body,souls,mind and heart. Breath in and out, calm yourself. Don't let your problem eat you. Believe in yourself okay? I know, we know that you're a great person. Just be patient and talk to god everyday. If you feel like you're gonna give up.. listen to motivational speech on youtube, Trust me, it will change your thinking process.
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@Nevena83 (65282)
• Serbia
25 May 19
Endlessly thank you for your support. All my life destroyed my self-esteem, and now I feel very bad. In my life I always struggle to help everyone, but I forgot about myself. I've always put myself in the lately.
