Father's Day Rollercoaster

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What will you be doing for Father's Day? Is there someone in your life that has been a positive father figure with whom you will celebrate? For me it will be a roller coaster of emotions. This is the 2nd father's day without my daddy. We lost him about a year and a half ago to an illness that still can't be explained. He had many health problems but I still think his doctor was a quack who did nothing but throw medicine at random symptoms. Whatever part that played in his declining health, I believe the main issue was heartbreak. My mom had gotten really mean to him over the last 15 years. Under the same doctor, she had gotten addicted to prescription meds. My dad stood by her through the mood swings, attitude changes, and constant criticisms. When my mom almost died about 4 years ago from complications of pneumonia and drug withdrawals (poor health care again), daddy was still by her side. A couple of years ago, she was diagnosed with dementia. The hospital and psychiatric hospital ran minimal tests. They just slapped her with a diagnosis and sent her home with different medicines. She got to where she was such a danger to herself, my dad, and the rest of the family taking care of her, we had to put her in an assisted living center. She was so mean to my daddy. She was cruel. He understood she was sick, but his heart was so broken. He lived for my mom. We saw his health take an accelerated downward spiral. Not having him here this year, and wondering if his death could have been prevented, had I had more power to change things, brings me almost to the brink of depression. On the other hand, I have the most wonderful memories of my dad. He had such wisdom and love. His sister always called him the gentle giant, and he was. He touched all he was involved with in a positive way. I also have a husband who is the best dad ever. He lives for me and our children. He adores our grandchildren. He and my dad are the most godly men I knew/know. God must love me to have blessed me with them. So if you have someone who has been a good father or father figure, celebrate them tomorrow. Celebrate them every day.