Day 19 No Cigarettes

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I wanted to check in before I lose the opportunity to do so with this upcoming week ahead. I have been ultra busy with work at both the full time and part-time job, mostly, but also errands, household chores and trying to get a little bit of sleep in between! Also, dealing with the added stress of no cigarettes...For 19 days. It's a huge accomplishment for me. It has been a roller coaster ride, mainly of emotions, anger, irritation. The first two days I was going to rip someone's head off. Probably literally. I felt like crying constantly. It was like severing a relationship. I still haven't smoked any cigarettes, it has been 19 days. My desire to smoke is still there. I am still feeling annoyed, angry, more easily stressed, and with no real outlet for that stress. I do have a nicotine inhaler, and some gum I am still chewing on. I also DO have an e-cigarette a friend borrowed me, but I am trying not use that except for "emergencies" since arguably the e-cigs are worse for your health than regular cigarettes. What I have NOT done since I quit smoking: Weighed myself. and I am feeling a little bit fatter. That kind of worries me, as I have felt so lackluster and without energy that I haven't pushed myself to exercise too much besides walking. I have noticed the following though: *Mood stabilizing JUST A LITTLE BIT more than it had been - less "on the verge of tears" as I had been the first couple weeks *No more coughing / sneezing phlegm (sorry, gross) *Slight stomach ache / changes in BMs (again, gross, but I wonder if any of the sugar free candies I have been eating here and there have had any effect) *Generally, my clothes and my car are both smelling much better than I am used to! *I have NOT starting running yet like I had planned to. I need to soon. But I need some energy and to get some quality sleep. On the plus side, also, I do not feel the urge to go to bars OR go to the casino - which are my two fun "night time" activities, as I am truly afraid I will relapse. My will does not feel THAT strong to put myself in those situations quite yet.......... However, that will NOT stop me from having a couple beers with dinner tomorrow, mwahaha. Please send words of wisdom if you got 'em!