It has been a month

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I have gotten quite a lot of stuff done. I do need to do a lot more, but as of right now... I have been honestly surprised about how hard this has been. I mean... ours was mostly a marriage of convenience. We were friends. We were really good friends. Viv once told me that of all the various friends she had over the years, I was the one that could be relied on. If she needed something, she knew I would drop whatever I was doing and help her. It wasn't just Viv I did that for. I used to do that for Connie too. In the spring of 1999, after Viv and I had worked a bunch of weekends to clean out Connie's mom's apartment, she told me that she just couldn't live with Miranda anymore. However, she couldn't afford a deposit on an apartment of her own, not while paying rent at Mir's. I said that we'd need to ask Connie, since Connie was my roommate at the time, but tell her it would only be for a short time. That I wanted to add another bathroom on the house since I just could not live with Connie in a one bathroom house. I told Mom that I needed to add another bathroom. Mom suggested that it might be cheaper to just get a new house with 2 bathrooms. She asked a friend, who was a realtor, to let us look at 3 bedroom, 2 bath houses. This is the same lady who had sold Mom's house the year before. We looked at a few, but really only liked one, but not as much as the one I was already in. So, we went with the remodel from early August to late September. Connie and I stayed the first month in Mom's apartment at Westminster Manor and the second in one of those long term hotels. Viv moved in at the very end of November and... well... I kicked Connie out, I mean evicted her, in December of 2005. The reason? Well, I had spent a lot of time with Viv when she lived in the other places, to get away from Connie. With her living with me I no longer had a place to get away from Connie. So, we had been friends for years before she moved in. We had never been lovers, even after we got married, she lived at one end of the house and I lived at the other. We both only had twin beds. And yet, and yet, I'm really upset about Viv's death...