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By Toni
@toniganzon (77064)
Philippines
April 4, 2022 6:04pm CST
For myself.
Recently, well actually not so recent, I have been feeling like I am no longer myself. I have lost that funny side of me. The playful one. One that loves teasing and finding almost everything around me funny.
It's been months and I can't seem to find my old self. I just pray that I won't fall into this darkness and hope to find myself again before this year ends if not sooner.
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12 responses
@RasmaSandra (97912)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
5 Apr 22
I sure hope you can find a way to get over this, I snap myself out of dark times with my favorite music or movies or series depending on how bad it is, Maybe something here can help
https://umzu.com/em-cgi/btag/blogs/health/herbs-for-anxiety-and-depression
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@toniganzon (77064)
• Philippines
5 Apr 22
That's why I watch Netflix from morning till nighttime but it's just temporary. Thanks.
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@toniganzon (77064)
• Philippines
5 Apr 22
I’m so sorry. Every single year for 31 years now i would go into a slump from December till February and would bounce back by March. But it’s April now and this has gone long enough.
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@toniganzon (77064)
• Philippines
6 Apr 22
@RubyHawk Nope not at all. The only time I think I was really truly happy was when my son was born. But I would really still be depressed every single year at that certain period of time. Coz that's the time I lost both my parents.
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@RubyHawk (99367)
• Atlanta, Georgia
5 Apr 22
@toniganzon It’s not a good feeling. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever come out of it. It’s like I’ve lost my identity. I don’t know who I am anymore.
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@RebeccasFarm (91299)
• United States
5 Apr 22
I can totatlly relate..the stress
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@toniganzon (77064)
• Philippines
6 Apr 22
@RebeccasFarm Nothing can help me feel better at the moment except time. I have essential oils that help me calm down. And cycling helps me a lot but I haven't cycled for over a week now due to bad weather. And yes, it was triggered by something.
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@RebeccasFarm (91299)
• United States
6 Apr 22
@toniganzon What helps you to feel a little better at all Toni?
Is there any herbs or medicine you could take for this to give you a lift?
Did something trigger this Toni in you?
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@toniganzon (77064)
• Philippines
6 Apr 22
Yes, I know the reason and I know what to do actually. But I just hate that I get to feel this way. I can't stop myself from feeling this way.
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@toniganzon (77064)
• Philippines
7 Apr 22
@LadyDuck I know I cannot get rid of this bad feeling right away but time can do that. I can only fix whatever is causing it. That's why I know exactly what to do.
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@LadyDuck (502148)
• Italy
6 Apr 22
@toniganzon - I am really sorry, I had those moments in the past. As much as you try there is nothing you can really do.
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@LindaOHio (222222)
• United States
5 Apr 22
I hope you see a doctor soon. They have some amazing meds for depression.
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@toniganzon (77064)
• Philippines
6 Apr 22
Doctor is not an option at the moment.
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@toniganzon (77064)
• Philippines
7 Apr 22
@LindaOHio I'm not at that point where I'm needing a doctor.
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@LindaOHio (222222)
• United States
6 Apr 22
@toniganzon I'm sorry to hear that.
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@toniganzon (77064)
• Philippines
5 Apr 22
Thank you Carol. I don't really want to burden others but it's nice to know that someone is there for support.
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@CarolDM (203396)
• Nashville, Tennessee
5 Apr 22
@toniganzon I totally understand. You are never a burden. That is what friends are for.
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@toniganzon (77064)
• Philippines
6 Apr 22
@CarolDM Thank you but I just can't help feeing that way.
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@1creekgirl (44560)
• United States
5 Apr 22
I'm sorry to hear this. Life does have seasons and hopefully you'll soon feel like yourself.
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@toniganzon (77064)
• Philippines
6 Apr 22
That is so true. I sure do hope it'll be over soon.
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@toniganzon (77064)
• Philippines
5 Apr 22
I’ve kept myself even busier and now it’s taking a toll on me.
If you sometimes need to talk feel free to message me, I am all ears
@toniganzon (77064)
• Philippines
11 Apr 22
Thanks for the offer. Truly appreciate it.
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@nela13 (59367)
• Portugal
11 Apr 22
@toniganzon take of you and you are very welcome.
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