"You Could NEVER"

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Yesterday I mentioned the ending of a 7 year friendship because of how poorly I was treated and realized that I was never going to find respect. Well, this person has a wife who was just as awful to me. She and I got into a lot of arguments, mostly because she had a very old mindset, thinking that women should have "man" jobs (whatever that means), women should always take the man's last name, children should always take the father's last name, she was very wishy-washy when it came to trans rights, she was okay with gay rights, but regardless some of her opinions were very harmful. We got into other arguments as well, but there is one thing that she LOVED to do to me. And that is basically, using my own mental health against me. I am very open about my mental health, I talk about how I am bipolar, I have ADHD, I am very socially anxious, and the trauma I have dealt with, all of that is out there. And her favorite thing to say to me was, "If you have this, then how do you expect to be a writer" or whatever. Like, I have my social anxiety, and she would go, "If you have social anxiety, how do you expect to do interviews?" I mean...if I am comfortable, I can still do things, I might panic, but if I get to talk about my work or answer questions about myself, I will be fine. So like, why does it matter? So, the final straw with her that ended our friendship is because I am very "sensitive" I had mentioned to her that when I was in middle school and high school I was considering being a psychologist, I love psychology, I love helping people, and I love learning how people tick. But I decided to go a different path and be a writer instead. She goes on to say, "you could never be a psychiatrist because you are so sensitive!" and just kept repeating that over and over and I'm just like...first off...I wanted to be a psychologist, and secondly...what the heck are you talking to me this way? "You need to have tuff skin! But you are so sensitive!" And I told her, "I am not looking into being a psychologist" "I know! I'm just saying that you could have never been one because you are so sensitive" To which I replied, "I don't like the fact that you are reminding me of my own mental health and how it supposed is the reason why I am not on a certain career path, not like I can change my mind or anything." And she is like "I am not reminding you of your mental health, I'm just saying that you couldn't be a psychiatrist because you are sensitive" Um....what did you just say? Why am I "sensitive?" because of my mental health Like...you are mocking my mental disorders, how dare you? And so, I was just done. That was just so awful, I didn't deserve that kind of treatment. Also...y'all, never EVER use someone's mental disorders against them. Some days I am the most confident person, I can talk to everyone, and I am happy as can be. A lot of days I hate myself, I don't feel like socializing, I just want to curl up and cry. Every day is going to be different, the only thing that is the same is having to survive through it.