Thoughts Astray: Don't know where to start

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I can still remember how it all started. It was all for fun, and I just took advantage of the good, old days. I had free access to the internet, and I had so much energy. There was nothing to worry about aside from budgeting my college allowance and trying to be the good-est version of myself when the situation calls. Staying in school was the least of my worries, I don't know why but my heart's not into it no matter how hard I tried. It lasted for 10 years, all for nothing because I chose to take the other side of the road. Anyway, life's really full of surprises. I write by hand on a journal once in a while, but I've already trashed some away. It's great that options like this exist, and now that I'm back, it feels like I travelled back in time. Reading my past discussions gave me a good laugh and it does look like a joke being here for 16 years with just 90 activities. Organized chaos, that's how I define my situation. Too many hobbies I guess, and reality bit me so hard. I didn't realize that until someone commented on my not-so-ultimate "comeback" post. Oh well, it's another Monslay again and though I don't like spending most of my time sitting down anymore, that feeling of missing something I love to do keeps haunting me even I'm wide awake. I don't know why but I'm always craving to write my heart out despite the unexpected turn of events. I'm thankful that motivation came out of nowhere but again, it's a long hiatus and I'm still experiencing a little bit of mental block. There's so much on my mind that I don't know where to start. I can't figure out what matters most and prioritize it. I guess that's just how things go as we age. There's so little time, still so much to do and we can't do anything about it. So what's it going to be? I still don't know yet, but this is it. I'm finally returning while making a few tweaks along the way. It's about time to change the order of business and this discussion will serve as a reminder of my priorities.