Those Sad Green Eyes

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Last night I was watching Buffy, the Vampire Slayer over again. It is at the point(mid-season 2) where she and Angel have gotten together for their night spent together. This of course turned him into Angelus and his more evil personality. She is devastated and cries herself to sleep. (I must have watched this series nearly a dozen times and still, some parts touch me.) For some reason, this particular episode touched me and I cried too. It wasn't just the story unfolding but I was reminded of my own past experience. Back in the late 70's I was working as a cocktail waitress. It was my besties at the time and Is practice to go out occasionally before we had to go to work and do some dancing and maybe have a drink. On this one particular night, a man came in and sat down nearby. Immediately upon seeing him, I was impressed. He had shoulder-length red hair, and striking green eyes and he was wearing a camel-colored leather jacket with fringes along the arms. He had a true hippy look going on. I have always been attracted to men with long hair. But it was more than that. It was the way he carried himself. I was intrigued. He almost immediately came over and asked me to dance. We just had a connection from the start and this began a relationship that continued for nearly a year. I knew almost from the moment I met him that I was in love with him. But, he had this sadness about him that seemed to keep us at odds. It showed in his eyes. Finally one day he told me his story. He had 4 children, all boys, and had been terribly in love with their mother. She, on the other hand, was a loathsome creature who had sex with every other man she could. It went on and on until he couldn't take it anymore. They divorced and he retained custody of the boys. He said he would never marry again. I enjoyed our time together for nine months. We did have a very serious thing that happened between us that I can't go into but, soon after it happened he broke up with me. It was extremely hard on me and it took a long time to move on. If I ever did. I still think of him and wonder how he is if he ever thinks of me. His sad green eyes still haunt me to this day.