KiraNoFutago

@KiraNoFutago (107)

United States • Age 40

Joined myLot 16 years ago

Sleepy, lazy, apathetic, but still trying.

Discussions (15)

KiraNoFutago's Discussions

This violence

KiraNoFutago @KiraNoFutago (107) • United States 16 Aug 17

I'm terrified. I'm angry. Livid. Cold. I've never owned a gun. We have one now, and I intend to grab a second and build up enough to carry. I'll be going to the ranges, learning how to use them properly. I'm sewing up small...

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2 people

Triton's Arrogance

KiraNoFutago @KiraNoFutago (107) • United States 31 Jul 17

I've read before an argument about how horrible it must be to live under King Triton, from Disney's The Little Mermaid. It argues mostly about his quick anger and outrage, but it also argued another point that felt off to me. The...

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2 people

Be Silent, Child

KiraNoFutago @KiraNoFutago (107) • United States 28 Jul 17

Here's a little bit of personal history. I never had a real dad. My biological was abusive, so the man who ended up being called "dad" was the stepdad who stayed the longest. That isn't to his credit, as he faked a disability...

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8 people

First love

KiraNoFutago @KiraNoFutago (107) • United States 20 Jul 17

I was always a very introverted child, and being plagued by anxiety made a bit of a recluse of me. I could hardly bring myself to step out to make friends, and always felt people thought the worst of me. It blinded me to any...

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3 people

Crying Again

KiraNoFutago @KiraNoFutago (107) • United States 12 Jul 17

Crying for the first time in a while now. I won't really go into why at the moment, it's lifelong family issues boiling over once again and if I keep on with my past tales it'll come out eventually anyway. While I'm angry is...

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3 people

Foolish Child

KiraNoFutago @KiraNoFutago (107) • United States 8 Jul 17

As with most people, I've been robbed a few times. I've been fortunate that it's always been my property, and not direct robberies I have to experience. However, I know from many past experiences that I do not think rationally...

foolish

panic

robbery

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Acid Rain

KiraNoFutago @KiraNoFutago (107) • United States 26 Jun 17

The path was clear. For once, no one else was coming. No one else was going. There had been a public warning: today's rain was acidic. There were breathing problems related to acid rain. No one was going to stand outside without...

fiction

story

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1 person

Self-introduction

KiraNoFutago @KiraNoFutago (107) • United States 25 Jun 17

Since I'm reasonably new to myLot, I'm told an introduction is in order. :) I am a short introverted woman with PCOS and anxiety. I have vocal chord dysfunction, so I have to treat my voice like a limited product. I have a very...

introduction

self

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3 people

When it finally clicked

KiraNoFutago @KiraNoFutago (107) • United States 25 Jun 17

I've always thought of myself as an ally for PoC, but I never quite got it. I thought I did, certainly, but I was that person who'd take it personally if someone said you cannot be racist to white people. I'd throw in specific...

white privilege

racism

racist america

Liar, Liar

KiraNoFutago @KiraNoFutago (107) • United States 24 Jun 17

Liar, liar, pants on fire Hanging from a telephone wire Swinging left and swinging right Body twisting in the night Liar, liar, would you say It's you who lights the world today? Would you smile? Would you cry? If you knew today...

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1 person

Early Morning

KiraNoFutago @KiraNoFutago (107) • United States 24 Jun 17

My alarm did not ring. Not yet. So early. I'm two hours early. Again. I stayed up late last night, searching for ideas. Searching until nothing was left in my mind, and I blacked out. I don't recall how late it was, really. And...

waking up

morning

stream of consciousness

1 person

Creepy neighbor

KiraNoFutago @KiraNoFutago (107) • United States 23 Jun 17

One of my earlier memories is taking a short walk around the neighborhood with my younger sister. We lived in a small neighborhood which looped around on itself, and this was in the early 1990's, so it wasn't a scary thing to be...

creepy

memories

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2 people

Stream of consciousness

KiraNoFutago @KiraNoFutago (107) • United States 23 Jun 17

My brain is melting. Melting and melting and it never stops. It runs down my face and over my hands as I type. Grey and pink intermingling, running together until neither stands out. It collects dust, this mass. This liquid, it...

rambling

stream of consciousness

all in my mind

depression

demons

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Life as a slob

KiraNoFutago @KiraNoFutago (107) • United States 23 Jun 17

I have never been able to motivate myself to clean. I try. I sit down and start, only to get distracted right up front or lost in where to place things while sorting this area. I look for motivation, in myself and from others. I...

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3 people

Oddest favorite foods...

KiraNoFutago @KiraNoFutago (107) • United States 7 Mar 10

I'm always fond of getting into conversations about favorite foods. I love learning about new things to try, and it's always fun to see the expressions I get for the favorites I tend to list. For example, my very favorite food...

eating

favorite food

odd foods