My Jeff.

My Jeffers - This is my Jeff. My partner, soulmate, and my best friend. I'm so so lucky to have someone like him in my life.
Canada
May 8, 2007 1:41am CST
This past weekend, my partner, "Jeffers", and I celebrated three wonderful years together. It's three years together that many of our so called "friends" said we'd never see. A lot of people didn't like that Jeff and I met online. Many of MY friends in particular told me he was probably a rapist looking to get his sick kicks. I knew without a shadow of a doubt he wasn't. I don't know HOW I knew, but I did. Jeff saved me. He knew that, although my ex and I had split, I was still suffering from abuse. I was on the phone to him one night, when my ex actually attempted to rape me while I was on the phone! I left a few days later when my ex made an attempt on my life. I told him it was truly over, I had no love left for him, and any shred of respect I had for him as a human had just been totally destroyed. I moved myself and my kids in with my mom for a couple of weeks. I flew out to visit Jeff for four weeks in August of 2004. That 4 weeks together was pure heaven. We hit it off instantly, and any fool could see our feelings for each other ran deep. I had to fly back to the UK at the end of that 4 weeks in order to get the rest of my affairs sorted out before flying back out for good. 6 weeks later, I flew back out to Canada, followed by my kids shortly thereafter, thanks to my best friend flying out with them, and we've been here ever since. Jeff has been absolutely fantastic with my babies. They absolutely adore him. He has accepted them like they were his own, and he has a way with them that has them doing whatever he wants them to do. It brings tears to my eyes when I see them huddled together on the floor on a weekend doing something, whether it be drawing, painting, or just having fun and making each other laugh. I pity my ex that he decided to not have anything more to do with his children. He'll never see them smile, never see them grow up, and he'll never realize what he's missing out on. I feel lucky, and honored that Jeff and I met. He's the stuff that every girl dreams of - some days I find it hard to believe that things are so good. I'm almost scared of waking up and finding it was all a dream lol. He is my partner, my lover, my soulmate and my very best friend. He has saved my life when my depression bouts threatened to kill me, he has made me laugh when I should be crying, he's made me cry when I should be laughing, and he's made me who I am today. Thanks to him, I'm no longer that little girl scared of her own shadow. On May the 3rd next year, we're getting married. It'll be 4 years to the day since we first got together. That day is when we will truly become a family. Husband, wife, and three adorable children. I'll class that day as "The day my life started again."
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13 responses
@rx4life (1930)
• United States
8 May 07
What a great story!!! Isn't it just the best to find that special someone that completes you? Not that we aren't complete without a partner..but sometimes ( like 35 years ago for me)we just meet the person that fits us like a puzzle piece!! Like you I came from true abuse in my past relationship so was very skeptical about any future relationships...but 3 years later when I was least expecting it...there he was at my door wanting to look at an apartment for rent. ( I was the manager as a second job to help pay my rent)...He rented the apartment, we became fast and furious "friends only" ( we both had vowed no more quagmires for us!).. and love sneaked in the back door and I've been "managing " him ever since!!! This November it will be 34 years married!!! We've been through a lot and it only makes us stronger...I love that your Jeff is good with your kids...my Bill was fabulous with my son and he brought with him the best gift in the world...a beautiful daughter that I fell in love with the moment I met her....we became the fabulous foursome that no one could tear apart..and it's that way to this day...Our kids even look exactly alike... I wish you and your family a life full of the love and adventure, laughter and joy that our family has enjoyed....Personally I think your life has started again already...and your marriage will just be a wonderful new chapter in it!!! Bless you all...and I hope we all get to hear the wonderful details of the wedding next May!!! Peace...
• Canada
8 May 07
I'd given up all hope of finding Mr Right to be honest lol. Jeff was a gift straight from heaven. Going to a new relationship from an abusive one is scary - I'd forgotten what it was like to feel loved. I was alive, but not living, if you get my drift. I just existed. Seeing my kids now and the way that they accepted moving to a new country and accepting Jeff was wonderful. There were a few upsets in the first few weeks and months, but over time, everything smoothed out. You'll definitely get the Wedding details next May lol, but first, you get to hear all the stress and drama of the planning too LOL. Thanks so much for commenting though. I appreciate it. :o)
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• United States
8 May 07
I give both of you woman a round of appolse for having the courage to get out of an abusive relationship. I have seen to many women who stay in the relationship. I am an disabled RN so and we are taught what to look for and what to resources are available. Koodos to both or you for having the courage for leaving your exes and koodos for having the ability to trust again.
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• Canada
8 May 07
Learning to trust again was the hardest part for me. I knew I had to get out of the relationship, but I didn't know HOW. The night he tried to rape me was bad enough - when he made the attempt on my life, I finally woke up and thought "I don't deserve this!" Jeff has been my rock. He's taught me how to love and live again, for that I'm eternally thankful.
@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
8 May 07
Congrats to you both. I can't wait to see all the discussions you have aver the wedding. Only a year to go, you better get busy!!!LOL
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@tammyr (5946)
• Etowah, Tennessee
9 May 07
Sounds like you are getting it all together and are well on your way to a very nice wedding. I am sure you will find ways to get the extra money if you both want to do it. When I got married, a thousand years ago, my husbands family had a flower shop and they did the whole thing for free. His uncle was a preacher and married us in his church, for free. His aunts gave us a reception at the preachers house as a wedding gift. That was the only home large enough to hold everyone comfortably. We ended up paying VERY little for our wedding and it was pretty nice, but not a huge ordeal.
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• Canada
11 May 07
Wow tammy!! You think you could get that kind of a deal for me in Canada too?? LOL.
• Canada
8 May 07
Lol tammyr. I am NOT looking forward to the stress of this. Mind you, we are hiring a Wedding Planner. We spoke to her before and she's a fantastic lady so we have no qualms with that. However, regardless of how much our Wedding will end up costing, she asks for a $2000 deposit to hold the booking and initial bookings for the different venues and so on, and then the Wedding has to be paid in full a month before it takes place. Getting that initial deposit together may be rough going.
@marlyse (1056)
• Switzerland
9 May 07
what a wonderful story sweet. your love for him shows through every word. i am glad you found such a nice man after bad years. its great to see you did sort all out and i cant wait to hear from your wedding plans. i better start of thinking for something special for you lol. congrats to both of you and my best wishes and thoughts are on the way. :-)
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@marlyse (1056)
• Switzerland
9 May 07
you are very welcome
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• Canada
9 May 07
Awwww thank you marlyse. Your words mean a lot to me. I'm certain that you'll all be hearing about the Wedding Plans lol. Stress tends to need an outlet somewhere after all :P Thank you so much for your well wishes and thoughts :o)
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• United States
9 May 07
Wow hon he sounds really wonderful! I am happy that you are out of the bad situation that you were in. You also have you a very handsome partner! I guess you got lucky all the way around! Best Wishes to all five of you in your new life together. I hope you have a beautiful wedding day.
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• Canada
9 May 07
He really is wonderful Princeworthy. I honestly never imagined that we'd be together. I think I knew what kind of a person he was when we discussed my children. He said "So long as you guys are with me, you're safe, and loved, and nobody will ever hurt any of you again." He has stuck to that sentence through and through. He is rather handsome isn't he? :P My daughter has heard me teasing him, and so now she turns round and says "Daddy, you're too cute" LOL! Thank you for your wishes for my Wedding Day. I'm so not looking forward to the planning though lol.
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• Canada
9 May 07
We decided to go the easy route of booking a Wedding Planner lol. We've spoken to this ladt before and she's absolutely WONDERFUL. Even better, her company is all about planning wedding for couples on a budget. DEFINITELY what we are LOL. We have a good idea of where we're holding the Wedding, but we still have to decide on a color scheme, what sort of food we want to serve, whether it'll be buffet or sit down meal, whether we want open bar or not, what sort of music the DJ should play and so on ugh. I'm trying to remember all this and sort it one at a time. As wonderful as my partner is, I ask him these things and he's like "Oh, I dunno ... you pick!" I asked what color flowers we should have for the table centerpieces and his exact response, I believe, was "Why should I care what color the f*cking flowers should be!" Then he wondered why I was angry with him!! I swear to god, if he makes a single remark on the actual day after I've planned it all, I'll be locked up for shooting him in the head on my Wedding night! LOL.
• United States
9 May 07
LOL how cute of your daughter! The planning of the wedding goes alot smoother the sooner you start. If you are planning on having it in a year I would start looking for a place now! It will be less stressful on you if you start early. You should go and get a planner book it will tell you the dates you should try to have everything done by. Just don't be totally strict about following and remember it is only a guide :)
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• Canada
8 May 07
Congratulations Rugrat, Its so refreshing to hear something positive come off this net instead of all the horror stories you tend to hear, and its those stories that kinda stick with you. I went from a abusive relationship to a relationship I still cant believe is as wonderful as it is...I will be celebrating my anniversary the 28th of may, 6 wonderful years and still going strong. I didn't meet him online, he is a newfie like me. Your story sounded as if i could have wrote parts of it myself...I to was stuck in a relationship that tore me down and made me question any thing good in my life...when I finally got out, and still to this day i don't know where I found the strength, I vowed that I would never let another man treat me the way my ex did. I would rather be alone the rest of my life than to subject myself or my children to any more abuse... Four years after my divorce I met Jim, he gives me reasons to smile when I cant possibly find a single reason to even lift my head. He is my other half, my soulmate, He helped me realize that love was a gift and not an obligation, and he showed me how to trust again...how to love again when I thought that would never happen... I dont know your Jeffers, but he sounds like a wonderful man, any man that welcomes another mans children, well it says alot about his character and his heart...sounds like you were blessed by a higher power to have found meaning in your life like this, and I dont doubt it for a second that this was probably meant to be for you, I am sure you deserve every glorious moment of it, you and your children...congratulations on your anniversary, and many many more to you and Jeff...Your ex dont even know the meaning of love or family or the precious gifts we call children, he will probably leave this world a bitter sad old man...they say that what goes around comes around, to each their own, I am sure he will also get what he deserves...good luck, best wishes... Rachel
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• Canada
9 May 07
In a weird kind of way, I still find it strangely comforting to know that I'm not the only one who suffered abuse like this. At the time I remember I used to wonder if it was just me, or if it was my fault - though try as I might, I couldn't figure out what I'd done wrong. You know it's bad when you start making ridiculous excuses for their behavior. I'm like you in that I still find it hard to believe that I'm a part of a relationship that is everything I ever dreamed of and more. I guess that feeling comes after being in such a bad place previously. I pity my ex, I really do. He'll never see his babies grow up. It seems he also was cheating on me without me knowing too. He moved in some girl and her daughter the day after I moved out. Apparently, she lived over 3 hours away from him, and so they had to have been "talking" for a while before she moved. It made me laugh because it was an attempt to make me jealous, but why would I have been jealous when I knew I had something so much better? Men like my ex don't have brains or respect for anything - not even themselves.
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• Canada
9 May 07
Sometimes people don't realize what they have until its gone, and some are just so confined to their way of thinking never see the wondrous things they had to begin with. My ex went on to marry a total witch, so ironic to say the least, it is she thats the controlling one, and when she says jump, he says how high..lol..his life is one of misery and for the life of me I dont understand why he is still in that relationship with her. He lives in the same town as me, within walking distance, and he still dont spend any time with his children, they are growing up around him and he dont even notice. That for me is probably the hardest part. They are so wonderful my children, and he is too stupid to see what it is that he is missing out on...I guess in that respect I pity him as well... Everyday when my Jim says something nice to me, or goes out of his way to do something for me like tidy the house or cook me a meal or pack a lunch for me to take to work or just hug me because I look like I need one I wonder how I managed to get such a wonderful caring man, I know that I must have done something right in this lifetime to deserve it, and when I crawl into bed after working night shift and he cuddles me in his sleep I know that I am truly blessed and that the years of being abused and questioning my self-worth was probably worth it a little to reach such a place of bliss and happiness... I wish you all the best in your life together with Jeffers, tell him he is extraordinary, and that its men like him all women try and find in this one shot thing we call life...best of luck always Rugrat, to you and your new family.
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@PunkyMcPunk (1477)
• Canada
8 May 07
I do want to begin by saying I am very sorry for the horrible relationship that you found yourself in. I am also sorry for the people that had said bad things about your new relationship. I met my boyfriend online. My family is not only Catholic but old fashioned. The notion that I had even wen onto an online single site was enough of an embarrassment for my family. But I still went ahead and got to know this guy I met online. I'm Canadian, he is American. We met in December of 2005 and have not looked back. Within a few days of chatting on msn I knew this was no ordinary msn pal. We met in person that January and since then it has been one magnificent whirlwind. He is amazingly great with my boy and me. I have never felt SO special or safe. Love is grand. Congratulations to you on 3 years with the man of your dreams!! I'm halfway to that mark!
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• Canada
8 May 07
I admire your courage to face up to your Catholic old fashioned family. With all due respect, I find that religion gets in the way far too much these days when it comes to relationships. It really shouldn't. It's weird that you say you're Canadian lol. My partner is Canadian too, and I'm a Brit. Small world lol. I knew within days of chatting to my Jeff that he was something special. I was stunned when we got together, as he'd shown NO interest in me at all prior to me working up the courage to tell him I thought I had feelings for him lol. I totally relate to that Whirlwind feeling. Being swept off my feet is something I wasn't used to either!
@xfahctor (14118)
• Lancaster, New Hampshire
8 May 07
*looks up and smiles* love you:)
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@gabs8513 (48686)
• United Kingdom
8 May 07
Sweetie I am so happy for you that you have found such a lovely Person after what you went through and you deserve all the Happiness None of us know what is round the Corner so hold on and keep it with you for as long as you can Hugs to you
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• Canada
8 May 07
Thank you very much gabs. It's very true that none of us know whats around the corner. The same courage that helped me leave my ex is the same courage that got me on the plane to Canada to meet Jeff. As soon as the plane took off, I lost that courage and the kind German lady at the side of me spent the 7 hour flight convincing me that I'd be just fine LOL. She was right.
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@gabs8513 (48686)
• United Kingdom
8 May 07
Sweetie I know how hard it is to leave I took 21 years to pick up that courage so I know what you went through but I am so glad that it all worked out for you as you deserve it
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@irisheyes (4370)
• United States
9 May 07
I so happy for you, Rugrat. Thank you for sharing this wonderful love with us. It's good that you had the courage to listen to your own feelings and were not swayed by "friends". So many people blow their entire life away for the sake of friends who don't really have their best interests at heart. It's good to here a happy ending from somebody who had the courage of her convictons. (Make sure you put some of those wedding pictures up on Mylot, okay?)
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8 May 07
Congratulations - Cheers, a toast to three happy years
Many congratulations hun, and it's great to read such a lovely and heartwarming discussion. My very best wishes to you all
• Canada
8 May 07
Thank you very much hun. It's great just to feel like I finally found my place.
@charms88 (7538)
• Philippines
8 May 07
Wowwww, you must be over the moon having met your Jeff. I always heard others saying about believing in second, third chances or even a hundred chances. I know what you went through with your EX caused you mental and emotional scars. They said that such ugly thing happened for a reason. It can help you to come out more stronger and wiser. That after the storm, the sun will begin to shine brightly again. I'm happy that you were able to put your sanity intact and gave yourself the chanceto accept love again. It isn't everyday that we see a miracle happening in our lives. But indeed, a miracle was bestowed on you. I'm happy that you finally found your true half. Congratulations!
• Canada
8 May 07
The sun indeed shone very brightly - kinda like the calm after the storm instead of before lol. The mental and emotional scars are still there to a degree, but I forgave my ex, and I pity him, because he knows no other way. Besides, how can I move on with my life if I don't forgive him? God provided Jeff for me, so that I could learn to live my life again instead of just existing.
@xfahctor (14118)
• Lancaster, New Hampshire
8 May 07
I'm really happy for you guys. My girlfriend, you know her in here as PunkyMcpunk, and I met online. Totaly random thing but the connection was instant. We met 4 weeks later in person and have been together ever since. Almost a year and a half together now. I wouldn't trade her for the world and I plan on spending the rest of my life with her. Congradulations guys, great story. Best of luck.
• Canada
8 May 07
Many congratulations on being what we 'net people refer to as a "success story." People tell me time and again how 'net relationships fail and don't work and so on - and then they ask how I met my partner. To see their faces sometimes is just priceless! Many congratulations on your wonderful relationship!
• Australia
15 May 07
Hello retardegrugrat Your story is amazing. Finally you find your soul mate, and the most important that he love your childs, most man not concern with that. Congratulation with your 3rd year celebration. Hope your love will last forever. God bless five of you. *angel http://money-athome.blogspot.com http://beautycosmetictips.blogspot.com
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@Swtrose (3385)
• Canada
9 May 07
Thank you for sharing your story with us and congratulation on your upcoming marriage. It is nice to hear that someone has found love on the net.
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