Have u lamented earlier and rejoiced later.

Well yeah. Sometimes I regret that things won't come on my way. I cry when I feel I can't take something for I fear I won't make it. But then later on, I rejoice for I can see the positive side of what happen.

This is a good question! Actually, ever since I was a small child, I wanted to be a writer. But, when I got older, I really wanted to attend college and study to be a nurse or a physical therapist. I had decided that my writing goals weren't realistic. I decided that I would take time off after high school and then go to college after taking a "break" from my academic career. I had a few opportunities to go to school, but something always happened to get in the way. I got married and still had not attended college. I worked very hard at my job and figured I'd attend college a year or so after I got married. I had my first child after my first year of marriage, and my husband preferred that I be a stay at home mother and put off college. By that point, I was very happy to have my daughter, yet I felt like I needed to go to school, because the more years you put it off, the harder it is to go back when you finally do. After some time, I began to regret not beginning college to work toward building a career in the medical field before I met my husband. It made me very upset and I got depressed that I would never get to go back to school. But, the things we plan for ourselves may not always be what is meant for us. I went from feeling certain that I would have a career in the medical field and writing for my personal fulfillment to not knowing if I would ever get to go back to school. One thing remained constant and that was my desire to be a published author. I realized in this past year that I had been focusing on what I did not have - a furthered education and a career in the medical field, when I had really wanted to write all along. I realized that I had wasted time that many women don't get to enjoy. All of that time that I was obsessing over schooling, I could have put into my writing career, which is what I really wanted most. So, now I am celebrating the fact that I DO have the time to write. I do have the time to focus on that goal. I am now not wasting my time. I am focusing fully on my role as mother to my three beautiful children and on my writing career. I am glad now that I didn't go back to school. Since I began concentrating on my writing, I have gained confidence in myself, both as a writer and as a person. I am anxiously awaiting getting to see the final result of my first published work, which is set to be released on July 1st. I couldn't be happier. I don't have a contract with a publishing house yet, but the fact that someone thought I was a good enough writer to want to publish one of my works, makes me feel certain that I can get the publishing contract that I desire. I WILL be a real author and make a name for myself in the literary world! And I feel fairly certain that had I went to school and taken the opportunities that I once felt I had missed, I would not be where I am right now, pursuing my dream.