i hate my life....all the parts of it

Probably nobody else has the right to judge whether you have a psychological problem or not. I think people should only be judged by their actions, not what they think inside their own heads. That said, if you reach out to expand your education, perhaps by reading some of the old classics of literature from your own country and also from around the world, you will realize more and more how possible it is that the people you envy aren't really as well off as you think they are. Inside they may even have the same feelings that you do. Studying this poem by Emily Dickinson might make you feel better: http://quotations.about.com/cs/poemlyrics/a/I_Had_Been_Hung.htm In this poem, Dickinson expresses feelings much like your own, but then as she grows older and becomes successful in life, she finds that the things she used to want are not exactly what she wants or needs any more. The best way to start life over is through a good education, which will give you the tools to understand which things are most important in life and which things that seem very important really are not.