Crash and Burn
By mamakatsarj
@mamakatsarj (143)
Philippines
June 7, 2007 6:53am CST
Im so filled with anger. Darkness has devoured and drained all the love in me. My heart is tired from trusting, my mind is worn out from making sense of the things that doesnt really make sense at all. How can people you love betray you? How can they look you in the eye nd say their sorry, when in reality you know tomorrow they will hurt you again?
This journey is far too painful for me to bear. this path is vividly dark and frustrating. I dont want to stay here anymore. I want to escape. This is what I always wanted to do.
I dont want anger to eat all of me. I dont want hate to get the bet of who I am. I want to run at the end of this tunnel. I no longer want to linger, I dont want to be reminded of all the pain they caused me. I want to see the light, to feel loved, I need to be LOVED.
3 responses
@aninspiration (346)
• United States
9 Jun 07
so true your mind spins you no not where to turn like everyone has gone away nothing is there to make your day the tunnel is dark oh so dark will there ever be light which way should you turn to find it and will anyone be there that cares enough to help when you make it you get tired of the hurts and tired of being alone but for some reason they say we should go on if only they new how hard iot is but just keep working there will be a time youll feel joy maybe for a day or maybe a week but when it comes youll know why you fought to make it there and you will feel love again
@maddog108 (3435)
• Australia
7 Jun 07
scarey post there mamakatsarj your describing depresion really well.if you are actually feeling this way becarefull .
@pallidyne (858)
• United States
7 Jun 07
As romantic love is not something that appears instantly with a -just add water- sign, its time to be with other people who care about you. Turn to friends and family and get some good hugs. Yell and scream and stomp and cry, but also eat and laugh with those who are right in front of you who care about you.
And as someone who has felt this pain before--- feel the unconditional love of a cat or a dog. They listen really well and then do something completely cute or unexpected that you cannot resist smiling about.
