sad and lost.
By rockatrina12
@antisociality (163)
Philippines
June 12, 2007 5:37am CST
i've been down since the 'breakup'.when he got back to his ex,now present girlfriend almost immediately, i feel like I was just a trial to their relationship which they successfully overcomed. you know 9 months can't beat their 3 years. despite our 9 year age-gap, that realationship was really something for me, something that you should not let go.anyways, i think i've given it my best shot. i don't know what hurts the most when everything does so. It's too painful to think about, but i can't do anything to get it off my mind. pretending to be fine seems easy, but at the end of the day i still cry. too many promises are made and broken, and left me here to self-destruct. the funny thing is, i don't hate him, no matter how hurt i am, how close i am to lose it, i don't hate him..there's nothing i could do but cry, to wait for the pain to stop. they could be married and have a great life, but for noe, i'm hurting, i can't do nothing about that. it's hard to move on,i'm gonna need a lot of time,but i hope i'll get over this.
3 responses
@modstar (9605)
• Philippines
11 Jun 09
You'll get over it soon. At least you learned about it earlier. If it happened like when you're in your 2nd year, then i guess it would really be more devastating. For now, just enjoy the life of a single lady. I'm sure you missed a lot of things. Do the things you can do now which you can't when you were with your boyfriend. You never know, sometimes, the way to heal a broken heart is to find someone new. OR... when someone comes along.
@antisociality (163)
• Philippines
11 Jun 09
hehe, this is so long ago, you atill replied to this. I'm very okay now. thanks.
@selina0625 (1379)
• Philippines
12 Jun 07
Time heals all wounds. I too have a three year relationship with a guy, my first love. We broke up and he immediately have another girl,who is also a friend of mine, I think. Unlike your now ex-boyfriend, my ex-boyfriend and me never got back together again. At first I was like you, I don't hate him, I still love him and I literally can't find anything wrong with him.I blame myself for everything, I blame myself for making him look for another. But I guess we will eventually wake up. The pain will go away in time and you will realize that you are better off without him. I now have a husband and a child and I'm very,very happy with my life right now. Don't worry, you'll soon get over him. Just enjoy your life now and don't close your doors to other possibilities. There is a guy out there for you. A guy who is meant to be yours forever.
@antisociality (163)
• Philippines
14 Jun 07
yup, i've been blaming myself too, for what happened.i don't hate him at all, and i can't also say that i don't love him anymore, but what can i do, if he does'nt what me anymore, right? i'll just sulk here..hating myself..then maybe i'll do something, if i ever came to a realization.
@mean_queen (1713)
• Malaysia
12 Jun 07
Aww.. I'm so sorry for what happened to you. I'm sure you're strong enough to go through this. Everything happens for a reason and probably this is what you need to experience something greater in life. I know you'll get over it. I've been brokenhearted plenty of times and at first I though I was gonna die. But now I know that what doesn't kill me, only makes me stronger.. So hang in there okay dear~! You've got a lot of friends here to support you through your pain...
@antisociality (163)
• Philippines
14 Jun 07
that's what im always saying to myself..that everything happens for a reason,though i still don't know what it is up to now, i hope it's something positive.
thanks.
