Am I crazy for not wanting children? (Ever.)

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If you look at the situation from a strictly physical standpoint, I KNOW I'm not. But once you get beyond that, is it really sane to not want kids? What really brought on this line of questioning was a dream I had a couple of months ago. I was walking down a long white hallway and I felt like dying. I didn't know what at the beginning of the dream, all I knew was that I wanted to kill myself--immediately. (Un)fortunately, every time I tried, someone I cared about (classmates, family members, teachers, etc.) would stop me. If I found a gun, someone would snatch up the bullits before I could get a hold of them, if I found a cliff to jump from, someone would tether me to the hallway somehow. Right before I woke up, I realized that the only reason that I wanted to die, the only reason I felt like the epitome of human filth, was because I was pregnant. Now, I've never wanted to have kids, so the dream wasn't surprising in that respect, but I was shocked at how really and truly awful I felt about the fact that I was pregnant. So, I just thought I'd ask around, maybe see if some of you mothers out there would have any insight as to why I feel this way. Or even if you don't have kids, why do you like them so much? I can't stand them, but maybe I'm just missing something.