This is the reason why my new car is so important!!!!

@maribea (2366)
Italy
June 21, 2007 3:51pm CST
As I told you, I have a new car and i am happy, but moreover this is important for me, this is a sort of comfort...for my soul. The fact is that there is a thing i could not tell anybody and that was linked to my past car. One day my ex-boyfriend came to me and said...I know I hurt you many times..now i want to make you happy. I have a big surprise for you...this weekend we're leaving towards a place I am sure you will like. I wanted us to use my car and he wanted to drive. I let him do as he pleased. I didn't know anything about where we were going. I was very tired after a long day at work, but when I saw him yawn I asked him to let me drive. He said: "No, I want to drive". I didn't want to argue..it was such a bad period...he had hurt me so many times, we had quarelled a lot, I wanted to let things go well, so I let him drive but again, I asked him to stop and make me drive. "You know i don't mind driving and I am feeling a bit upset because you seem too tired and uneasy". He said I was crazy to worry. And so it happened..after a while..he simply..he simply closed his eyes and felt asleep..it was a moment, just one long and never ending moment. The car skidded....were I not able to keep control of the wheel, we would have died ..on the right there was only the night and a deep deep ravine!!!! I was shocked and so angry because he had been so stubborn and so silly to put us both in danger...but I had to keep control of the situation, to take care of him, to say that we were lucky..and i had to start driving....no matter how it costed me..since that time I have been afraid of driving too near the right edge of the road for a long and I have always looked at my car remembering the moment I was about to die.. so now I have a new car, it is safer and it brings no memories of a person who made me suffer so much and nearly killed me!
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5 responses
@wrdsofwisdm (1069)
• United States
21 Jun 07
Mia sorella, Now you have a new chapter in your life with a clean slate and new memories to make.:) I have been in a few scary mishaps with cars too. Some people have one scare and never drive again. That is sad because they don't conquer their fear. May you and Trix have a great time together.
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• United States
23 Jun 07
Maybe I did not word my response correctly. I was trying to say that you are brave and are conquering your fear.
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@maribea (2366)
• Italy
23 Jun 07
oh no my dear friend..I got it right..I was just saying that I had to conquer my fear even faster than expected because I had to drive after what he did..imagine what!!!! oh I understood you very well. thank you for your support..maybe my words were not clear enough..it may happen because my English is not as good as I wish
@maribea (2366)
• Italy
23 Jun 07
well I had to drive as soon as we were about to die so I think I did my bes to conquer my fear!!!! but you are right. I am trying to concentrate on myself and this is a new period of my life and I am enjoying it little by little
@AmbiePam (85560)
• United States
21 Jun 07
I'm glad you have a fresh start, and now you know you are right to trust your instincts.
@maribea (2366)
• Italy
23 Jun 07
you got the point...I have to trust my istinct..it is when I don' trust it that all my problems begin!!!! does it happen to you too??
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@AmbiePam (85560)
• United States
23 Jun 07
Oh yes. It sure does.
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@polachicago (18716)
• United States
22 Jun 07
Your friend was very controlling and I am glad that he belongs to your past. We all have good and bad b-friends or g-friends at some point in our life. Without t-storm we don't know about sunshine... Thanks to him, now you know what you are looking for... Hugs!
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@maribea (2366)
• Italy
23 Jun 07
i loved him very much and he broke my heart and I am still here trying to find all the pieces...but anyway, I learnt to be warier of people and to protect myself as much as I can.
@aidonia (4209)
• Greece
21 Jun 07
I really sorry you needed faced all these,but let the past to the past.I told you that I was happy with your new car but reading these make me fell happier. I just hope except the new car you have a new good boyfriend at your life too.You are so good ,kind and sensitive person and you deserve the best.
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@maribea (2366)
• Italy
23 Jun 07
oh I am so tired and wounded that I can say that i hate the very thought of men!!!!maybe I am ending up like a true single!!!! but thank you for your kindness and let's hope for the best
• Pakistan
22 Jun 07
Congrulation for new car. This car is your own. But the car you owned through your ex-friend was not your own. Now you can enjoy it as you wish and want. But remember that the people who have no car have also no pain, care and anxiety of its possession. Most glad good wishes and best compliments.
@maribea (2366)
• Italy
22 Jun 07
no ...the car he drived was my car..Iris was my personal car and he wanted to drive it ....anyway I am happy he is away from my life..this is the only good thing in this story.