Do you make yourself a prioriety? Are you made to feel guilty for it?

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Do you make yourself a prioriety or do you put everyone and everything else first? It can be confuseing trying to figure out what you are really SUPPOSED to do in life. Some people will tell you that you are selfish if they catch you doing a single thing for yourself and from that you learn to feel as if you are being selfish if you ever think about yourself. However, helath care professionals seem to feel that it is very important to your health both physically and mentally to make time for you to do the things that you like and to sometimes focus on nothing but yourself even if only for just a few minutes. I spent the first 2 and a hlaf years that I have been with y husband trying to please everyone and nothing was ever good enough, if I worked full time I would be criticized for not having the time to keep the house perfect and cook everything from scratch and when I am not working or not working much they criticize me for not bringing in the bucks. I soent over 2 years feeling very unhappy with myself, felling that I was not good enough because I was unable to do everyhtig they seemed to think I should do. Recently I have had the time to think about all of this and I have realized that in order to do everything they think that I should I would have to stop sleeping entirely and only take the time to go to the bathroom once a day. I would be working 10 hours a day, and then coming home and immediately starting to cook and clean and once that was done I would have to leave the house immediatly and just boot it as fast as I could from place to place to run everyone errands for them. The time I have spent contemplateing this has led me to develope a great amount of rensentment for my in-laws. It seems as if they feel that I don't deserve a happy life, my mother-in-law never worked until she was 40 years old and only did then because she was bored and needed something to do since her kids were all grown. It seems as if she does not want me to have anything she had because she thinks she is better than me and deserves more and therefore whatever she had she feels I do not deserve that much. When we were discussing having children all she did was throw negative comments until my husband decided he did not want us to get pregnant after all. Has anyone else had this experience? Please let me know if this is typical in-law behavior or if anyone else in your life acts this way towards you? I think I may have gotten on a bit of a rant there I hope it all strings together right and make sense.