I was really scared today..

I'm not gonna give you advice. But I am going to tell you about last week in my house. I didn't have the same reason, mine were my own, but I got that same scared feeling. When my kids were small they kept me from ending my life because I didn't think anyone could raise them as well as I could( arrogant, huh?) Since 1996 it has been my belief in Jesus that has kept me alive. But, last week I had just reached that point. You know that point. I thought, NO MORE. I just can't take life any more. I had been told over and over since 1996 that I would spend eternity in hell if I ended my own life. That night I looked for proof. I couldn't find anything in the Bible that said it clearly to me, I looked here on mylot, did a web search and kept coming up with ideas and beliefs, but I wanted proof. I sat on my porch crying and begging God to show it to me. Finally I just got so tired of looking, crying and pleading, all the while knowing if I really,really wanted to end my life I wouldn't be trying so hard to find a reason not to. i just gave up and went to bed. The next morning that sun came up like every other morning in my life. It didn't matter any more that I was sure the night before was going to be my last. It passed, just like a bad hangover, it passed and after a few days I feel much better. I'm not in top shape yet. But I'm getting there. You will too. I know it hurts like hell that he is gone, but are you going to let him define your life? Is he going to stop that sun from coming up? Hell, no, he isn't that powerful, is he?

hi, i hope by now you feel a little better. I wont give you advice because i know im not in the position to do so but what i can give is my support. Just be strong, try to think of yourself first. Respect your feeling and soon you'll heart will know what to do. I hope you get through this.

Life is full of ups and downs. Don't let any relationship define who you are. Pick yourself up, call a friend, call a relative. Go to the fireworks with them. Have a blast. Move on and enjoy your life.

Younginlove being in love at times really sucks and i really feel for you .I really hate it when there is an arguement here .Just remember things will get better even though it doesn`t seem like it at the moment .Talk to people and try and take your mind off cutting you are better than that.In time your pain will ease .there are a few sites where you can go and just write what you are feeling ,the other people who are there are and have been through much the same type of thing i have been talking in there for quite a while now and it has really helped .I have added a site for you to try just to see how it goes .I hope you can get thriugh this and remember you are not alone there are lots of people out here willing to help and if you want to talk i`m willing to listen . www.healingwell.com i hope this is of some help to you

Dont let this ruin you for relationships let it strengthen you and teach you how to find the reality in relationships. To much that goes on considered caring is not. This is a way to mature and do better as an adult.

That stinks... vent away! Take care of yourself and I hope you feel better soon. If you need anything at all just ask us! Vicki

My ex I was with for a fe years and we were happy (well that's what i thought) The day he broke up with me was a Normal day spent together he droped me off at work and gave me the usuual kiss goodbye... That night however when I got home Mum said there was a letter on my bed she found it in the letter box.. (jokingly I said it was a love letter) Then when I opened it to my shock Horror it was a letter from my boyfiend Dumping me I was so distrought.... I had No warning..... My heart goes out to you I know how you must be feeling... Like the world is ending all your plans and dreams have been torn to peices and left in the gutter... I too had feelings like you in hurting myself as that's what I use to do but that didn't prove anything I still have scares to show the pain I suffered I guess... Try and move on and be Happy take your mind of him I know it is hard but I trust you can do it and you will meet someone much better than he was and they will treat you like a princess and give you what you deserve.... I wish you all the best in your healing process......

You are better off without him. I had my heart broken a few times when I was younger. There will be another boyfriend soon, maybe several more. Get out and go to the fireworks. Enjoy life and you will find that right person. If the urge to cut gets to strong call a counselor or friend that can help you get through it.

Maybe this relationship just wasn't meant to be? Please don't let someone else effect the way you feel about yourself. Move on and remember, there is someone better than him out there for you. You are not worthless and should never let yourself feel that way. Stay busy, go out with some other friends and try to forget him.

being dumped sucks...especially if you really love the person but who knows, you guys might still be able to work it out. u cant change what happened but who knows what tomorrow will bring. cheer up^__^there's many fishes in th sea

be strong Ms. beautiful... hmp... i know you are in a very painful situation but you should also think the importance of your own self. he's not the last guy on earth and there are more pretty girls out there who suffered the same thing as yours or maybe more than yours but they faught for their own good. he doesnt know your worth so why would you stick on him? get back the present you gave on his graduation...haha... he doesnt deserve anything from you.

Hi, it's good to share what you feel. Since you don't know if you need an advice or not, I'll just tell you what I think. Don't be so hard on yourself, your in a situation that's telling you that you haven't found the right guy yet. Look on the brighter side and everything will fall into place :)

nothing is important then you ; don t hurt yourself.love can end but life go on. you can find better guy and forget old one .time is medicine for everything .