I feel so confused and hopless.

United States
July 4, 2007 10:47pm CST
I feel so hurt. I want to disappear. I just want to go and drive to wherever the road may take me. I cannot believe my so-called boyfriend does not care about me. He really does not feel anything for me, for the pain that I went through alone. He wasn't even there during the process. He just went on thinking it would just go away, that it wasn't his problem. He had the nerve to talk to other girls while I was hurting inside and out. He didn't even want to keep it in the first place, and now he blames me for going through it, like it was an easy choice for me. I cannot believe that he treats me this way. I thought that he loved me. He treated his ex-girlfriend a lot better than me. I feel so used, so taken advantage of. I despise him yet I want to care for him. I wish he was there for me for whenever I needed him, like I need him now. I wish he would apologize and truly mean it. I wish he would treat me like his prized possession, his princess. I wish I wouldn't have to feel this way. I wish I could be happy. I wish for things that will never come true and it makes me sad.
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14 responses
@jene1985 (224)
• Australia
5 Jul 07
im sorry your feeling so down its really hard when we need someone to understand us and they just dont sometimes its not because they dont care but just because they cant understand. I have several mental illnesses and people are scared to be around me because they dont understand them .. I know right now it probably seems like it will never get better if you want to talk im more then happy to try and help you if you want my help or just want some comfort hang in there I know its easier said then done
• United States
5 Jul 07
If you are depending on someone else to make you happy, you will be disappointed every time. No man is worth feeling this way over. And you will never be the center of someone else's universe (except maybe a small child). Romantic notions of how we want love to be are responsible for the over 50% divorce rate. You will never find true love until you learn to be realistic in your expectations and reactions.
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@disvachic (10117)
• United States
5 Jul 07
He is a looser.You deserve better.I know how it feels to be hurt but honey be strong.Talk to God and he will send you the answers.YOu dont deserve to be hurt like that and its not worth worrying and disappearing.He is missing out.There are plenty fish in the sea you are young and have plenty time for the right Man.God will send him to you.
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• India
5 Jul 07
Hey there Krrrml, I really have no idea of who you are, or who your boyfriend is or even how strong and long your relationship is, neither about what problem you faced. Any ways leave those explanations aside, I would like to ask you, do you really love him a lot?? Really sometimes in realtionships things come so rapidly and harshly that some of us can't take control and be there for the other. Actually I am in relationship myself. I have faced many such situations like this in my life. I have been left alone and helpless by my love. I don't blame her for anything now. But then I was very angry back then. It takes lot of time and love to see others problems and forget your own and sometimes you have to be more loving than the other. You know what they say, do to others as you wish to be done to you, others will learn from your actions. There were times when I was totaly broken and down , but my girlfriend never took my problems seriously. Actually I don't blame her, she has faced a lot and still facing. She had been facing problems at her family front since childhood. How could I expect her to solve my problems. I must first give her comfort. You know when you feel like that, you have nothing else to fear all your life. You can never be wrong again. You love somebody without expectation, the gratest deed of all. Moreover the pain will never make you feel weak as you will always know that its for someone you love the most and will benifit him or her. Once you start loving them just to see them happy and not because you expect some pricess treatment or even expect them to leave their troubles and be by your side when you need them, then its is true love. I just wanted to tell you a little about love, things that I believe in. Rest is all upto you. Your Life Your Descision. Take Care May GOD Bless YOU
@gokuson (40)
• India
5 Jul 07
living with your boy friend is not gonna be your life come on try to live your life for you not for others if he is really your boy friend he will try to change him for you and not trying to leave you get it i tried to give give my advice if you dont like it leave it "always live happy "
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@peggysue (24)
• Philippines
5 Jul 07
hi there. Being with good friends specially in times like this is probably the best way of spending your time. Go out with your girlfriends, go shopping, get really dolled up... anything to keep your mind off this guy. Because any guy who doesn't treat you like a princess is not worth a second of your time. So be happy and stay beautiful - so beautiful, he'll be sorry for doing what he did to you.
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@lilaclady (28207)
• Australia
5 Jul 07
Well I am going to say to you, you can do better than that, I have found that it doesn't matter how much you hurt now life will go on and you will meet someone better and in a couple of years you will wonder why you were ever so upset, the old saying that when one door closes, another one opens is so true, it just means there is something better for you down the track, this is life enjoy the experience it is all part of getting you where you are meant to be...just be happy and best wishes.
• United States
5 Jul 07
No matter how painful it feels right now - that pain will subside and I hope you realize that there are way way way way way better guys out there than the person you just described. He doesn't deserve you. Let him go! Give yourself time and space and Mr. Right will come your way!
@Aurone (4755)
• United States
5 Jul 07
Chick, you need to get yourself a new boyfriend. One worthy of you.
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• United States
5 Jul 07
Whatever happend was not your fault. He probably didn't want to think or worry about the pain you were in, and just decided to do his own thing. You don't need someone like that, you don't have to go through all that hell. Believe me there is someone better, much better out there for you, and this someone will care for you, he will be there and he will love you. Maybe right now you don't believe that, but it's the truth. You can be happy, you can have things, but for now it is ok to cry and it is ok to be upset. You have every right to be, but I promise you in time things will get better. They always do.
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@maybey (365)
• Philippines
5 Jul 07
You feel confused means you are thinking clearly about your relationship. I can't judge your boyfriend because of your post maybe you need to understand what he doing today...maybe you feel jealous to her ex-girlfriend..i think you need to talk to him tell what your feeling is...if you love him,give him a chance to explain...
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@misshoney (973)
• Philippines
5 Jul 07
hi krrrml44. hey it is alright and natural to feel really bad after a breakup...give yourself a time to mourn and heal. but always keep in mind that the bad feeling will pass in no time. you can't stay that way forever. and don't ever think that you are the one to blame for your boyfriend's uncaring attitude. do not dwell on self pity. it is his loss, not yours. the perfect guy will come and you will be happy then. smile and love again.
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• Hyderabad, India
5 Jul 07
he was lucky guy he got a good lover. nice your thinking. don't warry he was back to you
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@homecafe (24)
• Philippines
5 Jul 07
heloo, it is just right to feel sad and be hurt its our nature i guess, life is full of mysteries and agonies, all these things that are happening to us are just part of our journey, with it are obstacles that will challenge us to be a better person and a better follower of god. God will not give you problems without giving you the solutions, life is not worth living without these challenges, take them slowly, breath freely its not yet the end of the road for you alot is coming for you my dear always pray and be guided by god everything is possible with him!cheer up!!:)
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