Second pregnancy jitters

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Its my second pregnancy and I am really not keeping up with it. I mean the weeks. I am due November 3, its only July so why do so? I refused the amnio and the dr. visits are very uneventful. Not that I am complaining a bit, but I wonder why go. I do have to go to get my boobs checked because they feel a "little cystic" whatever that means. The nurse assured me that I have been probably drinking too much caffeine which is true. But after learning about the IBC, Inflammatory Breast Cancer, I am a little uneasy about this uncoming test. I have prayed and those of you who are christians please pray in agreement with me, that all is well and its just the sweet tea. I worry about so many things now that I did not worry about during the first pregnancy. The child is a boy. Will I know what to do? Girls have attitudes but so did I, so that was easy. My thoughts have not exactly been very spiritual. Will that affect the baby in any way? There is Autism and all kinds of stuff that can go wrong. I think that its all just my hormones and I am trying hard to keep it all together but I worry. Is my husband okay? Would he tell me if it wasnt? He is so tired all of the time. He works very long hours. I pray that I can find something to supplement his income. The bible says that we should give over all worries and concerns to God and not be "anxious for anything" but how do you do that? New disease comes along and I seem to get the symptoms. I try to stay off of WebMD. I read a bible verse that once said that I was to see my children's children. So I hold on to that verse when I fear some medical issue. All of this is going on in my head... Now what week am I in? Is this normal? Or should I sign up for some shock treatment? What a minute would that hurt the baby?