Is your life the way you expected or thought it would turn out?

United States
July 12, 2007 10:43pm CST
For me the answer is a big NO WAY. I never wanted to quit school. I went back and got my GED, but it wasn't the same. I have started and quit college over stupid stuff. My first attempt at school was cut short because of pregnancy. 9 years of fooling around, who would have thunk it was possible to get that way. Second time, I let a man get to me and ended up having to move away. Got pregnant again and here I am. Surrounded by two kids. One never listens and drives me batty. The other one just NEEDS stuff ALL the time. She was just born though and I don't mind so much, well unless I'm trying to potty or get a shower in. lol... I am stuck here at home, bored and being told that if I WANT to babysit for money, I can only have 2 kids... what the heck is the point? There is NO money in watching only 2. Geez. Especially with my bills. Thats another thing. Being saddled with medical bills right at the tender age of 18, with no heath insurance to help foot the bill. No, I envisioned my life one of adventure. I wanted to get an RV and travel around. Stop and work when I needed money and move on when I had enough. See the whole country. Well, I have made valiant attempts to make my dreams come true. I did get out and see all the sites on route 66, all the way to Arizona. Shoot, I should have attempted to make it to California and at least seen the ocean. Instead, I got to see alot of Mesquite and desert and mountains. Beautiful state really. One day I'd like to die there. I'd say be buried, but no one can afford that. Take me all the way there... lol.. Even if I was ashes. I have not given up hope that things can change. Even now I'm looking online for colleges that I can do at home, since childcare and cost of fuel is crazy expensive for a stay at home mom. I'm on the verge of getting married. Still not sure about that. Crazy, went and got the rings and stuff, but sitting here wondering if I done lost my mind. Only because he drives me crazy. And not necessarily in a good way. Its been more than a few years since he has drove me crazy any other way. lol. Still, I attempt to make thing better... I'll keep on doing until I'm gone from this world.
3 responses
• Canada
14 Jul 07
You sound like a very strong person. I am a Canadian citizen so I am unfamiliar with the American educational system. In Canada young mothers are encouraged and supported when they seek to further their education. Perhaps you could research your state's views on educating single moms. If there is a system similar to Canada's system you could complete your education, which would enable you to travel. Medical and legal transcribers are becoming very popular. As a transcriber you could work at home that would allow you to stay at home with your children. Good luck with your endeavors.
• United States
14 Jul 07
Wow, thanks. Yeah, there is lots of support for single moms, but I am about to be married here soon, so I would have to get my financial aid around REAL soon. lol. I was actually attending to be a medical biller the second time I started college. I would still love to go, but childcare and gas are just too outrageous. I want to try and get a good online degree. That way I can stay home and learn, get a job and maybe further my education later on. I'd love to get into computer repair. Not just because it is good money, but because I find mine needs repair sometimes. Like, my Yahoo went out, and now I can't get it reinstalled. Its weird and obnoxious.
@Zorrogirl (1503)
• South Africa
13 Jul 07
Mine hasnt either. i was studying and started climbing the corporate ladder,when i was in an accident. lost my job, everything. couldnt walk for 18 months. its everything i didnt want or expect. but i have managed to dream again. i am working hard and trying to make money first,then live my dreams. i do enjoy family life though. its the best thing that has ever happened to me.
• United States
13 Jul 07
I so understand some of what you went through. I injured my back and lost a great job over it. I was STARTING to get out of debt. At that time, I hadn't graduated or even thought about bettering myself. That is what sucks to be a 19-20 year old. You don't think about those things. Its amazing how things change in 8 years.
@snoopy04 (718)
• United States
13 Jul 07
No, I never expected to be married and have four kids. I am married now to the man of my dreams but it took a failed marriage to figure it out. So let me rephrase that I have a ex, and four kids and a great husband. I always pictured myself as being single and traveling the world but it never turned out that way. I have to say though that right now I am glad my life turned out the way it because I am happy and healthy and now I realize I dont want to be alone the rest of my life.
• United States
13 Jul 07
Yeah, I'm happy to have my kids, but sometimes I get the blues when I think of all the things I wanted to do and never accomplished even one of them.