Stuck in the middle of today and yesterday.

United States
July 31, 2007 12:54am CST
I have been with my man for 6yrs when we got into the relationship he gave me the disclaimer that he was an asswhole.(Sorry about the language). I will admit that his honesty was a bit refreshing but to be honest he never treated my or acted like and as%$#ole toward me...So I really never thought anything of it... Well in time we decided to move in with eachother and I had his 1st daughter who is Ms. attitude herself. But things have slowly moved to getting worse he started treating me more of a live in maid and no matter that I worked he has gotten to the point where I have literally had to fight with him to do anything.. Mind you this wasn't always like this. since then we also have a 2nd daughter together.. Things just keep getting worse with his behavior. A behavior that has only occurred within the last four yrs and getting worse. For the last couple month I have gotten feed up with the behavior and been very distant myself. Today when he came home from work he stated that he was going to take the advice from some people that he got and stop being an as#$@ole toward me. I'm still waiting to see how long this will last and when the other shoe will drop so to speak. I'm also wondering what spurred him to speak with his coworkers about this.. The only thing I can think that would have spurred this was that I went to maryland on friday for an overnight to pick my brother up and bring him back ... But my best friend is male and we have been very close. I know that no matter what ever happens he would alwas be there for me and vice versa. I don't want my other half to change because he feels that if he does this for a few weeks that makes everything ok. I want an honest change. As a side not I would never cheat on him with my best friend because I have to many morals in place ...He new we were staying at my mom's place and I slept in my bro's bedroom while they slept on the couches downstairs. So I have no clue where and what he is or has been thinking about. I know that he complains to a mutual friend that i spend to much time with him, but I only see him once a week and usually on saturday around a group of people who come over and hang out... So it's not like one on one time when we go shopping at the malls that are anywhere from 1-2 hrs away..Which we haven't done and everytime I go out my other half always makes me take 1-2 kids with me. But yet he is able to go out and not take any kids. I just am frustrated to heck and back and don't know what to do or even how to handle it anymore. Any suggestions.
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@sunkissed (4330)
• United States
3 Aug 07
Well I for one see nothing wrong with you having this male friend, I think that you indeed need someone to talk to and spend time with away from your partner.By all means keep this friend, it sounds to me that you need him.Your partner goes out and does his thing.All I can say about your situation is that I was in one very much like yours years ago.It was wonderful at fitst, I had to raise his 3 kids they all had attitudes,they were just like their dad.He became verbaly abusaive to me, I could do nothing right. he would always say he was soory at firt and was going to change, but they never do!!It got so unbearable for me, it was just not worth it, He made me give up all of my friends especially my male friends because he was so jealous and insecure.He too could go wherever he pleased, but if I lefted the house I would have to have the children in tow.I really do not think that this is a healthy relationship for you. You deserve much better. When I left the relationship I was in, my selfestem was very low, do not allow this to happen to you..
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• United States
3 Aug 07
I'm afriad that it already has.. Thank you very much for your input... I really wish that he would sincerly change but i have a feeling that your right ... He keeps pushing for marriage as soon as the divorce is finalized..
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@sunkissed (4330)
• United States
4 Aug 07
Hun, You really deserve so much better,the partner I talketed about was always pushing for me to matrry him too, but deep down inside I knew it was never going to work, we even bought a big 5 bedroom 2 story house( my dream house) together, he kept telling me I could not leave it!!After we bought it, everything hit the fan, he got worse and worse, he really thought he had me then.I had my pool in the back yard and all..But when my daughter got pregnaunt and had my granddaughter I knew I had to get her away from him.I got a apartment and moved out while he was at work.I left the house that was in both names, I paid for it. He would not move. He moved another woman in there 2 months later. It took me 2 years before I could make him sell it. But I was so glad I finally left him.I would sellp in my car at night, go to friends to get away from him, it was terriable. You are still very young, you deserve much better. Now my daughter is in a relationship much like the one I was in, I blame myself, because she saw me taking it from this man, so she thinks it is o.k.!!
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• United States
5 Aug 07
Yeah I know what you mean my mom took a lot of mental abuse from my step dad and I guess that I have taken alot in the relationships that i have been in because that is how it always been working... Well I have to say I would like to avoid that with my kids. Sorry about the house.I also realize as much as they say it they never will change.
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