Missing My Little Angel
August 8, 2007 3:33am CST
A letter made for Rina. ----------------------- Her name is Rina - a 3-year old little girl, daughter of our neighbor, and the one who always called me three houses before I reached home from my night class during college days. *hehe* Once she saw me, she would run, throw herself to me , give me a big hug and kiss me on the cheek. Then, all the other kids in the neighbourhood would line up next to her to do the same thing. *smiles* By the time I reached home, I got lots of little smacks and kisses, PLUS a bodyguard (that's Rina) who carried with her my small notebook (because sh would always offer to carry my things even though it's too big for her). It was always the scenario that welcomed me since the time she learned how to speak, walk and run. [I was among those who taught her that! *smiles*] I even branded them as my Little Fan's Club and Rina, the youngest, is the president. *hehe* It was just a simple and ordinary thing, but I always look back to it with a sad smile on my face. *** [Rina...] I miss you so much, little angel! And I miss home, too. It has been a year and 9 months since I said my goodbye to you. Maybe, by the time you grow up, learn to use the Internet and read this, you would never believe that I call you 'angel'. *hehe* Because you never were, right? =p You are soooo bratty. Such a spoiled kiddo who always finds a way to get sympathy and affection from the older people around you. But that makes you special... I miss the times you would ramp in front of me to show off your new Sunday dress and shoes, and those times when you would go upstairs to my room and wake me up at six o'clock in the morning. (Today, it's the my cellphone's alarm clock that wakes me up. *sad*...) You would proudly declare that you have taken your bath because your hair is wet. *hehe* So, you would push me to go to the Rest Room and take a bath, too! [Hey! I am 17 years older than you!!! Grr...! :p] *** I miss the times you'd go to the house and play with my yellow and orange markers while I am studying. Out of eagerness, you would ask me to help you draw a circle. I would let you play with my pencils and colored ballpens. And once you finished "wasting" my ink, you would proudly show me your work: lots of circles and shapes that I am not sure if they are even shapes. hehe... *** With you, I found the little sister I longed to have. I miss fixing our hair, sweetie... Even miss teasing you that I am more beautiful than you are. *hehe* I miss the funny faces we made in front of the mirror and even miss more seeing you experimenting with my baby powder, cologne and lotion. You even want me to apply lipstick on you. [Don't hurry growing up, okie?!?] I miss making teases with you... but best of all, I just miss those quiet moments when I have you in my arms. *sigh*... *** You are still little, you are not yet aware of the things that are bound to happen. That night of November, when we were sharing the junk foods with my friend, was the final blow. I never saw you the next morning, where people were busy fixing our things... I never saw you amidst the crowd. I wished you would be able to experience the wonderful things I had at the place I called home for 20 years, 18 days and 21 hours of my life. But, it's impossible now. I am wondering how you are right now. The last that I heard was that you are now in school. Do you have another "new sister" in the new place you are staying? I am jealous. I envy whoever that girl is because she will have the chance of seeing you grow up. *** The night before the dreadful day happened, I had you sat on my lap. Let you sing that "Twinkle, twinkle little stars..." again. That night, I kissed you my final goodbye.
8 Aug 07
what an inspiring stories, I can realte to your story. Because I am now away from my house, especially all my wacky and funny cousins that lives near our house. Sometimes I felt sad when I remember them because Im all alone here in Manila and I am working here for my future... There's no really best place like home, ofcourse since today is August I am preparing a short list for their christmas gifts although not that expensive but I believe that its the thoughts that counts the most... By the way SR send your little Angel a letter I think she also misses you badly...Ü
8 Aug 07
A 4-year old will be able to read a letter? Hehe.. I don't know where she and her family is right now. I don't know where they are living now.. *sigh* How long have you been working in Manila? Where exactly there? And may I know where's your hometown? If it's just okay. :) Thanks for sharing your story. I'm glad I'm not alone feeling this way. Take care and God bless! \(",)_
9 Aug 07
okay, but I hope you will able to see her again... I am working here in Libis and exactly tommorow will be my first year here in Manila. I came from the City of Smile- Bacolod City. You are from Cebu right? I have once studied there in Cebu Doctors... But I went back to Bacolod because I cant fight the homesick I felt that time... From where are you in Cebu?
8 Aug 07
Aww sweety little Rina sounds a lot like my 5 year old daughter Niamh! I really understand that you miss her so much - has she moved far away from you? I do hope that you get to see her soon and that you make up for thos lost kisses and hugs xxx