death of a father you never really knew.
By gesell03
@gesell03 (173)
Philippines
August 10, 2007 9:22pm CST
lost my father 2 years ago,it just kind of surprise me still to be coping with the fact that he has other wives and that i am an illigitimate child , and that i never knew him personally, i dont know what is his favorite food, songs, movies, was never really able to see him attend any of my recitals, wasnt there for my birthday, was giving us financial support , money , birthday cards. i just still cry over the lost opportunity, but how do you stay mad at a person who is gone, and its even quite unfair that i do not even have memories stored inside of me to carry on,and that because of this i have problems starting relationships because im unable to trust. any stories.
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@lilaclady (28207)
• Australia
11 Aug 07
Oh dear how sad, I really feel for you, I grew up with the best mum and dad one could want, it is so sad you never got to know your dad, and I guss it is natural to feel cheated but maybe deep down he did too. It is also natural to be angry but remember he is in a place of forgiveness now and he missed out on knowing you so he had loss too. Now the part of having trouble starting relationships this is also natural, any small thing that happens in your life can affect you here and you have major reasons, trust is something people have to prove to you remember and there has to be people out there that can be trusted 100%, maybe a few only but they are out there, I wish you luck and much happiness for the future, but always remember he missed out of a parents biggest joy, the love of his child...you.
@butterfly39 (3904)
• Philippines
11 Aug 07
sorry to hear that...I just wished that when you are going to be a father soon ... then don't let you children experienced what you've been...
