Where Are We At This Point In Our Lives?

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I promised to do some "fasting" this weekend - that I will not go online over the weekend because of the retreat/recollection. However, I just can't seem to let this day pass without sharing the beautiful, healing experience I had during the first day of the retreat. *hihihi* :) ****** I will not go with the details for now. (Because I still can't find the exact right words to describe what had happened exactly 4 hours ago.) [I just want to mention this. This happened before we take our lunch break.] There's this person that (hmmm...)... I don't know how to face her when the time comes that I have to see her face to face. It had been more than a year that we hadn't seen each other. Am I too "shy" to see her because I'm "embarassed"? Because I don't know what to say when I have to see her? Because I'm too afraid that I didn't reach her expectations and I didn't fulfill what I promised her the last time we saw each other? I-don't-know.... But during the mass, when we had to say "Peace be with you!", I went around and looked for her. When at last, our gaze met. I went to her direction. She said, "Hellooooo! Long time no see." Then she opened wide her arms and... *haaay* I willingly went to meet her embrace!!! And while I was there in her arms, she whispered to my ears. "Welcome back. Welcome back....." [with a pat on my back.] (Yeah... Finally. I'm back.) *smiles* --------------------------------------------------- Afternoon session. Sharing time. Our group was composed of a couple who had been in the community for 16 years, 4 other women, and 2 of us who are "youth". hihihihi... Where Am I At This Point Of My Life? - The question during the sharing session. I was the second one to share, after the couple. I planned to share my experiences when I felt the Lord's presence in my life. With quiverring voice, I shared about: The crossroads - the turning point... The miracles - unexpected help.. The answered prayers... Another falll when I had already a hard time (and was not yet been able to) standing up from a previous hard fall... "When it rains, it pours." Those "I felt abandoned, but God didn't abandon me." Tears welled up when I uttered the first word of my sharing. It was the first time I opened up about this and shared it with a group. I recognize my pains. I recognize my hurts. I recognize my frustrations. And I came to this realization: 1) God has to take EVERYTHING away from me, ...and only then, I appreciated even the smallest things that I had - those simple things that had "remained". 2) He put me down to NOTHINGNESS, in order for me to see who are the ones who will still be able to accept me and see my "shine". 3) He had to blow me up and take away what I thought were my strengths, so that I'll be able to see what are my weaknesses. His unconditional love is just soooo... soooo.... (ahmmm) GREAT! It's so wonderful! It's so... beautiful! =) Where am I at this point in time in my life? I recognize His presence in my life and humbly ask Him to lead the way. [and I willingly obey.] *smiles* --------------------------------------------------- (Something within me was released. And oh, during the entire time I shared, tears just kept on flowing. I also stammered and my voice quiverred.) Not the usual me. *hihihi* And.. I felt FREE! :) **** Enjoy your weekend everyone! God bless! \(",)_