My Heart Is Crushed
By Rozie37
@Rozie37 (15499)
Turkmenistan
September 3, 2007 11:10pm CST
Juanita Bynum has been an inspiration to me for years. I love her messeges, her music, and the way she loves the Lord. I am sure a lot of people have heard what recently happened to her and some may have even known who she was before the incident.
I heard about it before, but wrote it off as being gossip. Then last night, I talked to both of my sisters about it and they are just as shocked and hurt as I am. My older sister says that she started screaming when she read it in the paper.
For a little background to those of you who have no idea who she is or what recently happened to her. Juanita Bynum is a powerful prophetess of God. She is an inspiration to millions. A lot of the women in my church community and around the world, look to her for guidance in spiritual, personal, and "Matters Of The Heart.
She was raised up under the ministry and guiding hand of Bishop T.D. Jakes. A televangelist who ministers to hurting women in broken relationships. Now, I do not want to judge anyone. Besides, I was not there to witness what allegedly took place. Nor, do I know what led up to it or what all has happened after.
All I know is that hearing and reading that her husband allegedly slaaped her down in a parking lot and was choking her, kicking, and stomping on her, makes my blood boil. Again, I do not want to judge, but I was in an abusive relationship and I know only one thing for sure, just because you think you have a reason, as long as it is not self defense, you never have the right to put your hands on anyone.
Everytime I think about this story, I feel for her and I cringe. She did nothing to deserve to be allegedly treated in such an evil manner. I just can not fathom being married to a man who claims to love me and then turns around and does such a thing. According to reports, he was allegedly saying that he wanted to kill her.
What really breaks my heart is that this was not her first time being married. She had been married before and when the guy divorced her, she ended up in a padded cell. She waited and prayed and believed God for many, many years. Then, he came along. Supposedly, the answer to her prayers.
Their wedding was televised and it was nothing short of extraordinary. I cried, I celebrated and praised God, right along with her. It gave me hope, that if I waited on the Lord and trusted in his timing, he would send the love that I have been longing for all my life.
Surely, she is holier than I. Surely, no man would ever do this to such an anointed woman of God. So, can somebody please tell me, what went wrong? The Bible says the a three fold card is not easily broken. This has shaken me at my foundation and I feel completely lost. I know that I will pray, both for me and for her, but where do I begin?
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@Sharon38 (1912)
• Jamaica
5 Sep 07
I dont knwo the full story behind this but I do beleive that everything in life both good and bad is for a reason. Dont you ever forget that no matter what we go through God has a hand in it. Not judging but it seems as if he lost his way somehow and is possessed by the powers of darkness which tell him to try to kill her. You see as children of God they enemy always is trying to get rid of us and if you put yourself in the way for him to use you he will. Remember the woman possessed with the devils. After she was healed Jesus said that because she did not laoow God's spirit to indwell her the demon brought seven more worse thatn himslef to possess her and I think this is what happen to her hsuband. Dont lose hope pray for her because she will have a testimony to share of how God brought her through. I knwo for sure because although my situations are not like hers, God brought me through alot of things and there is nothing that He cannot do. All He needs is just a little faith for Him to move. Pray for her ok?
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@Rozie37 (15499)
• Turkmenistan
5 Sep 07
Yes, I am praying for her. It took me by surprise and I am still dealing with the shock of it. But, I am allowing God to minister to my heart and give me peace about what happened.
When we as children of God hear things like this, it affects the entire body of Christ. We want to see God show himself faithful in her life. The Bible says rejoice with those who do rejoice and weep with those who weep. But, like she said herself, on her new Myspace page, this too will pass. God bless you and keep you in his care.
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@Rozie37 (15499)
• Turkmenistan
10 Sep 07
I know that I have been told that it is not what you go through, that is a test of whether or not your faith is real. It is what you come through that proves your trust in God.
Many Christians(me included) look at situations like this some time and ask I wonder what she or he did to have to endure this kind of trial. But, the truth of the matter is, it does not always have to do with some wrong that we have done.
There are times when we are being tried and tested. If we are on the outside looking in, we can usually be guilty of judging wrong.
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@Sharon38 (1912)
• Jamaica
6 Sep 07
Yes if we notice in the Bible it says "And it came to pass" so no matter what she/we is/are going through we can make it. I feel with you too for her but as I said before the best we can do is pray for her that she will have th strenght that God only can give to enable her to pass through. We are going through we need friends and family to bear us up in prayer and to encourage us. So you are going the right way friend and I am right there with you
@okwusman1 (2247)
• Abuja, Nigeria
4 Sep 07
you are actually concern about this issue merely looking at the post but that not withstanding, nobody can question God. All things worketh for good for them that loved and fear the lord, because we call upon his name, he will not allowed us to be ashamed. If a husband beats his wife, there is a solution. don't you think so? is anything too hard for God to do? the solution to her problem is in her hands. she has to listen to God not only prayer, God will tell her what to do. it is not divorce because God hates divorce. the solution to her problem is not far fetch, it just for her to allow God to talk to her in a quiet voice, if God does she will lock the man in her hand because the heart of the king is God's hand. Many people don't know the right we have in Jesus, it is right for a married woman to enjoy her husband if reverse is the case, you must not sleep until it is reversed. thanks
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@LadyDulce (830)
• United States
4 Sep 07
Divorce is permissible, and far better than having her killed, which is a likely scenario with abusers. Some men are just evil, and she probably needs to learn to distinguish between the good and the bad. I'm not bashing men; some of them are so amazing, you don't know what to do with yourself. It's just a matter of knowing the difference. And it's ok NOT to have a guy around. Even a good one. There's nothing wrong with getting to know yourself before you link yourself to a man. It's probably wise to know yourself through and through so you know exactly what you want and need and what you have to offer, so the same thing doesn't happen again.
Blessed Be
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@Rozie37 (15499)
• Turkmenistan
4 Sep 07
No, I was not questioning God, it was not a question that anyone would be able to answer. I am just a very sensitive person, so when something like this happens, I really feel for the person. I know for sure that God is going to work this out for good.
I know that she will also have a beautiful testimony that will be a blessing to us all. Right now, I am simply expressing my shock and disbelief at the entire situation. But, I know that God is faithful and I trust him completely with my life and that is why I decided to and will continue to wait on him.
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@gsp_001818 (1)
• China
4 Sep 07
Well,what should I say?
Everything has its chrecter.
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@marciascott (25529)
• United States
4 Sep 07
I have not heard of her but I feel sad for her, No man should put his hand on a women, if there is a problem just walk away untill things calm down.
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@Savvynlady (3684)
• United States
7 Sep 07
Roz,
This whole story is sad. When I first heard it, I was like, Pray it ain't so. The Person who sent me the news confirmed where she got it, and read some more on it. I feel so bad about that. I know how hard it is to have been married, been abused and just wait on someone. I was real happy when she married this man. I was hoping that this was what God sent her way, but now I hear that her husband was married to another woman and she took the man from his wife. That was told to me online so I cannot verify that. Then, he has a lot of debt on his hands as well, so I cannot say for sure what is the cause. all I know is that this is sad for all. Now it's said that she is filing for divorce and moving on. I feel really bad about the whole thing because you don't see too many folks trying to hang in there and all. Not to excuse him, but to be real.
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@Sharon38 (1912)
• Jamaica
27 Sep 07
Rozie I love this discussion right here. You call a spade for what it is - a spade. I totally agree with you and there will always be a a reaction for every action. I honestly dont think that is what happenned but when you find out let me know ok?
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@Flight84 (3048)
• United States
4 Sep 07
I'm very sorry to hear about this. I didn't know who she was, but apparently she made an impact on many lives. Abuse is such a terrible thing. I feel for anyone who is in a abusive relationship or had been in one before. Just know she is in a better place right now, Rozie.
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