begging for love

@kean28 (226)
Philippines
September 11, 2007 6:58pm CST
when we we're still together i told him not to leave me or else ill kill myself,still he broke up with me, i was on bended knees begging him to come back, i did what said i was trying to kill myself,drinking lots of meicines,slashing my pulse, then one of my friends told him that i was kill hising myself, he tried to stop me, and call me but i ignore his calls, he went to my friends house, he saw crying then we talk and told me that he love me but that was before...
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@madzie09 (278)
• Philippines
12 Sep 07
kean28, i did that before also when i was a little younger but i've learned to overcome it. i know you'll do the same and you will learn a lot from it. sometimes there are facts in life that we just have to accept even if it hurts to much. and the great thing about this kind of experience that you're going through is that it'll make you a stronger kind of person. everything happens for a reason. life's full of surprises dear, who knows how great can your next man be. :)
@kean28 (226)
• Philippines
12 Sep 07
thanks madzie09 its my first time here in mylot and i thought no one will responed to me..thanks alot hope to be your friend
@gnohb12 (49)
• Philippines
12 Sep 07
I sympahtize with you kean28, i guess its a normal feeling to those kind of stuff specially when you truly love the person, but the thing is life has to go on even w/out the one you love. You have to accept the fact that there is a good thing waiting for you. We never know but we still have to believe. As forrest gump said "Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you gonna get." =) I do hope everythings gonna be ok with you.
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@kean28 (226)
• Philippines
12 Sep 07
thanks a lot,
• United States
12 Sep 07
Honey, please don't do this ever again. Absolutely NO guy is worth you feeling like you want to kill yourself. Especially a guy who breaks your heart. I've learned in life that you can't force anyone to love you. They either do or they don't. If they love you, love them back. But if they don't, just let it go. LOVE YOURSELF FIRST! That is the most important love of all. If you don't love yourself first, than you won't care to stay with someone who doesn't love you or someone who mistreats you. But if you love yourself, you won't allow anyone to mistreat you or disrespect you. And you will only give your heart to someone who has shown you that he truly cares about you. So please, if in the future this happens again and he wants to leave, let him leave! It's his lost. In time, you will find someone who truly loves you and treats you right. BUT you first need to work on your relationship with YOURSELF because that is what's most important relationship and beneficial to you. Best wishes.
@Mirita (2668)
• United States
12 Sep 07
I'm sure that the right person for you will come and you don't have to beg anyone for love. Just give life a chance and you'll see that things will get better for you. You need to learn to love yourself first and move on with your life. I'm sure that God has someone very special for you.
@pagibig (297)
• Philippines
12 Sep 07
Think of it this way... Do you love him or do you love the IDEA of him. Loving someone is setting him free. You can't force someone to love you or continue loving you. You just need to let go. Killing yourself isn't the answer. That wouldn't make him love you. That would make him pity you. Would you be with him knowing that you guys are together only because he was sorry for you? Or that he was afraid that you'll kill yourself? Would you like FEAR to be the foundation of your relationship? Killing yourself isn't a sign that you love him. It's just a sign that you don't love yourself. Think about that.
@butterfly39 (3904)
• Philippines
12 Sep 07
Oh?...so sorry to hear that...but I know it's a normal feeling. It's not yet the end of the world. If someone's going away then there is someone right for you at the right time...
@kean28 (226)
• Philippines
12 Sep 07
thanks i hope your right,,
@mbilagan (178)
• Philippines
12 Sep 07
You must really love him for you to be able to do all those things. But I tell you, you should not do that. I know it's hurt so much when you lost someone you really love. I also felt that kind of pain before. It something unbearable. But I also know that in due times this feelings will gone. You dont have to kill yourself to stop the pain. You should always think that your life is very important. It's a gift from God and it's ony Him that can take that away. Killing ourself will never be the answer to any of our problems. And no matter how painful to love someone, you should not stop loving again and again. But always remember to love yourself too and pray to God that whatever happen He will always help you get by.
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• India
12 Sep 07
Well even I have done it once before to get the person who is now my husband and sometimes it embarrasses me a lot but at that time I was desperate to cling on to him. well I ‘got’ him and now we are happily married for 10yrs. I can understand your situation and has he come back for good? For your sake I sure hope so, but if he ever goes away again, don’t waste yourself. You see there are two sides to this: one is that he may not genuinely like you and you cannot blame him for not liking you. There is no such rule that the person we like will also like us in return. So if he doesn’t like you, then you should not force him to like you, it will be an obligation of his part, nothing more. Secondly, if you think that he likes you and goes around with you with rosy promises and then dumps you for whatever reason, believe me you are better off without him. such men are dangerous and you would be in far greater trouble after marriage. Its good riddance if he leaves you before marriage itself, at least you will be free to pick up your life again. And yes, if you have to beg for love, don’t beg in front of any human being. Beg to the One Above us and maybe He will grant you your happiness.
@cefaz_21 (2596)
• Philippines
12 Sep 07
kean28, I hope you'll get over that"hurt" soon, but I guess you have loved him so deeply and if that's the case,healing for you will be a long process, but healed you will be if you'll allow yourself to. It's ok to cry and cry and cry..you cannot die crying,unless you kill your self as you tried to do ..but ask yourself..is he worth it? You are worthy of someone elses love, girl..pls.don't waste your life..
@wisedragon (2325)
• Philippines
12 Sep 07
suicide - no man is worth killing yourself for
Why are you killing yourself? Is he Brad Pitt? Is he the richest man in the world? Is he really worth all the torture you're doing to yourself? Think about that, because I don't think there's any guy who's worth that much. There's more to life than begging your ex to come back to you.
@lexus54 (3572)
• Singapore
12 Sep 07
I am sorry for the pain that you have been put through. I know it hurts you deeply. But do you believe that God may have something better planned for your life? God knows your heart and what you are going through. You never know...He may be using this situation to test your faith in Him. Psalm 34:8 says "O taste and see that the LORD is good; How blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him!". Put your trust in God and surrender your life relationships to Him, and ask Him to bless your life and give you someone who will love and cherish you deeply, and take good care of you. God answers prayers, and if you truly believe and keep the faith, God can richly reward you, sometimes even beyond your wildest imagination. What you are experiencing now is only within your own human understanding; that's why you feel the hurt. Give God a chance to work in your life and pour his wonderful blessings upon you. Don't give up hope. May God bless you as you surrender yourself to Him.
@Philxav (733)
• Malaysia
12 Sep 07
Dear kean, this is not the end of the world.. i know how you feel when something like this happen to you life. Well dear you have done your part you have bend you knees begging just to have him back.. but threatening someone just to have his love back.. i feel that is not so good. And what you have done .. trying to kill yourself.. totally wrong.. but i understand your situation at that time. Normally, if the guy comes back.. he comes back because he have no choice and i cant say the love he pour to you will be 100%. Life is beautiful.. there are lots of things we should learn.. Be happy always for what you are.. and thank GOD always for his blessings
@ice2cool (53)
• India
12 Sep 07
the first and foremost thing u must not care for a person who doesnt respects u.. in love there must be equal respect... If he is not caring , then y are u??? that is different that u love him... and u cant stay without him.... one suggestion.."Never take things 4 granted.."