Do you wish your life away?

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When I was a kid I was always wishing it were some other time in the future - "I wish it was Saturday!" "I wish it was summer!" And my mom would tell me I shouldn't be wishing my life away. The other day I realized I'm kind of doing the same thing. I'm looking toward the next "easier" day. I hear myself thinking, "I just have to make it until Wednesday." Or "I just have to make it through the weekend". These days it is less about waiting for something special to happen and more about getting through some difficulty or stressor. I have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and find myself "toughing it through" busy days until I can just rest. And of course there are those obligatory tasks that tax my energies - a visit to the in-laws, long meetings, etc. I promise myself I can rest when it is over, which sometimes is days away. But I realized that I'm doing it more and more, just getting through things. Is this what aging is about? Or do I just have too many things on my agenda that aren't fun? So, I've started to detatch from some of the things that tax me most and give me the least pleasure. I'm doing fewer meetings and more creative activities that I enjoy. I'm sixty-five and retired. These are supposed to be my "golden" years. I don't want to be wishing them away.